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 Posted: 04/06/07 - 02:35 Post subject: Decent person with scary violent urges |
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Hello, I'm a 17 year old male and I'm a typical nice guy. I've been in two fights my whole life and they both occurred in elementary school. In both instances I ended up backing down because i could never REALLY bring myself to hurting anybody. Now before you come to the conclusion that I'm little and week, I'll have to tell you that I'm neither. I've always been the biggest in my class, and few can match me in hight. I've never been fat or overweight, in fact, I've always been "healthy as a horse, and strong as an ox." according to my physician. Well, anyway, the point I'm trying to get across to is that I have a very passive personality, I'm the type of guy that avoids confrontation by befriending as many as possible.
The problem. For a couple of years now, I've been very depressed because of numerous reasons. Stress of school, not having luck with girls, paranoia that my friends find me immature and irresponsible, due to me not having my first job yet. And all of this suddenly piled up has cause me to have these random and powerful primal urges to grab the nearest living thing and strangle it to death. My overall train of thought has changed from moderately upbeat to frustrated, angry, hateful, pessimistic, and cynical.
I normally laugh grin and pull stupid stunts to let my friends think I'm ok and content, but every once in a wile I'll slip and have a saddened, over-serious, or even pissed off look on my face.
Should i seek some type of therapy, or are these feeling normal? What should i do to deal with these violent urges? |
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