Feeling empty and blocked in the mind

hansol29 · Newbie Joined: 09 Jan 2007 Posts: 21

This is really strange, but since the age of 14 or 15, up until now (19), I have always felt as if something is missing. I would day dream constantly, and i can't stick to doing one thing. I cant do my work properly at college, and i would keep waiting for another hour to do it, and then again after another hour. I feel as if, my mind is everywhere, but at the same time, it is empty. And with that, my head always hurts, its as if, my brain has become tight, and it sometimes makes me dizzy. I even nearly blacked-out, it was as if i was going to become unconscious, and suddenly i felt my head feeling too tired and dizzy and out of no where, i had to quickly close my eyes, and cover them as i had to kneel down. I sometimes feel very exhausted, and whenever i walk, i feel wobbly and out of control. Sometimes i could feel my heart beating loudly, but as i had been to doctors, there was no sign of anything, and he had said that it was only anxiety that was causing these problems, but something tells me it is not anxiety.

Let me go through my past...i used to masturbate allot, during the time where i was only 11 years of age. Somehow i had become addicted to this, and it made me into a pervert. I could be honest with this, has i always had this urge which told me to masturbate, and just feel the pleasure of it. But i think i have faced the consequences of this, as i know have the feeling of myself being lazy then ever before. I don't have interest that much in things...and i really would ask forgiveness to god, if god ever listened to me, i would promise to make a change... but i think, only a miracle could help me now. I think all of my problems have been linked to masturbation, and it could even be because of something else. My father was a brain tumor patient, at around 1995. But thanks to god, the operation went well and it was a success. But i feel as if, I have inherited some kind of problem with my brain from my dad. I may be talking crap, but it can be likely.

I always feel exhausted and feel as if i need to go asleep. I am less active, although i try my best to be good, and stop the habit, i feel as though nothing will help, even if i asked for forgiveness, and even if i try work hard and help myself on this problem, as i feel as if i have tried everything. I really don't know what the problem is, but my head starts hurting allot, and i sometimes feel depressed, and sometimes sick when it gets worse. Sometimes I feel as if my main potential life energy has gone to a waste, and it has been blocked by my bad habits...I feel sometimes, as if, my mind is always thinking allot of things at once, that i can't even do my college work properly. I feel as if, I'm always changing...is it me?, or is it my mind ...am i just being to paranoid, or could there be a problem...?

amol · Newbie Joined: 05 May 2007 Posts: 4

Hi friend......myself amol from India. I also felt and suffered the same way as u. Same head hurting and block mind feelings and being exausted and unable to work normally even the college work same way.

Like u I also feel root of all my problems is Masterbation.
I would feel that masterbation is a crime and very very bad act.

I would repent very much to god for it. But I was addicted to it as I found it really exciting. But i would feel very shmefull for it.

Then feeling of being guilty of lord and enemy of myself grew in me slowly day by day as i would worry too much about it.

In public i would feel insecure..bad...uncomfertable for being bad boy. I would stay away from images of god as feeling of humiliating the lord...feeling of very bad...feeling of shame...feeling of guilty of lord suddenly come to my mind to make me feel very fearfull and insecure.

Then I started becoming very consious and depressed and insecure and fearfull. I would feel continuously insecure of images of lord and get pannick attacks block minded feelings on encounter of the same.

I didnt know waht was goin on. I suffered same way upto 4-5 yrs and completly away from normal life. I suffered problem in reading..writing...talking with friends and girls very much...

I felt problem and shocks while toilet too as it grew to the fear that i am hulmiliating the lord bcoz i am doing toilet or sneez etc...

So i felt contiously my head hurting and mind blocked and completly dejected and unable to work normally and feeling of no way out for me.

But truely speaking my friend we have done nothing wrong. Masterbation is a completly natural and normal habit in everyone.

It has to do nothing with crime or being guilty or shamefull of it. But just like eating or sleeping or working u should not do it in excess as we would feel then out of energy and nothing else.

Basically we are very good person but this fear and insecurity makes us abnormal and feel very bad.

So lets not worry about ourselve and stay happy....we are good persons and should stay happy and secure.

As we suffered very much we deserve to be normal and natural and happy.... so stay busy and happy and secure.

hansol29 · Newbie Joined: 09 Jan 2007 Posts: 21

Thanks alot friend, I would just like to know if this is related to masturbation, because I will be going to my doctors soon. Its just that, my legs, feel sore and tired, and wobbly, my body feels heavy and tight...whenever i walk...
most of the times, i feel hot, my heartbeat is beating fast...i feel as if im so warm and soo tired, i can't do anything...its just weird...i was wondering if I have over exhausted my brain...because i did use to masturbate alot wen i was younger... and sometimes i have that urge to just look at bad websites...its just...sometimes hard to control..and its spoils my studying...

amol · Newbie Joined: 05 May 2007 Posts: 4

dear friend.... I would like to tell u that its not wrong to masterbate at all.

But as we eat in control...sleep in control...work only for specific time etc.. masterbation is also like that natural habit in all boys. Only u have to keep it safe and in control. Otherwise like when u eat too much ur stomack may feel pain like that if u over masterbate u will feel out of energy..little bit depresed .. off mood etc.

So do masterbation happily and in calm way and also now dont get to much surprized by bad sites. Bcoz its nothing new....and whenever u want to visit such sites or watch something sexy u can do it happily. Dont be afraid of urself.

All problems arise only bcoz of fear and tension and not bcoz of masterbation or watching sites...right....so dont worry....

hansol29 · Newbie Joined: 09 Jan 2007 Posts: 21

It may not be wrong, but its not good to always do it...it makes mind weak, muscle tension, dehydration, brings an inner feeling of depression...

Guest · Guest

Hey,

I have been feeling pretty much the same. I have been doing masterbation for sometimes now but lately i feel really depressed
after doing it. I do suffer from anixety. And i made a tarnformation into every day masterbation when things outisde does not work for me.
It just feels good to do it when things are not working out.

And now it has become a habbit and not doing things. So there is no motivation and doing this makes more horrbile when ur not motivated to do ohter things.

I think part of your self is blaming it for it and making you feel bad about it. Part of it has to do with the fact that you know its bad coz of your paernts moral / God has been taught to you when you were young.

I am on an experivemtn now and i willl let you guys know my findings.

Keep in touch

hansol29 · Newbie Joined: 09 Jan 2007 Posts: 21

Hey, thanks for the post,

This has nothing to do with god. Because in my religion, god is evefrywhere, and isd truth, i think that its that whatever we reap we sow. This has nothing to do with my religion or god, I can assure you that, but I do know for sure, it has to do with masturbation. People say masturbation is ok, and is natural, but when you do too much of something, it becomes a bad thing. And from telling my experience, I am telling you the truth, I am not reacting over, or exaggerating. To back this up, I had masturbated alot in a certain time years back, and since then i got blurry head as if everyting is going dark, and it felt light as if i am about to loose conciousness, like a blackout. Its temporary and then it goes back to normal. This has to do with the brain, some substances in the brain has lower levels and therefore reacts this way. Too much masturbation is not good, it drains energy and so this is what has happened to me. Trust me beleive what you want, but I am speaking from experience and not religious morals. Why do people deny masturbation having effect. Ofcourse its masturbation...they should know it is normal, but too much isnt good at all...and now im suffering from it. Too much thinking... too much stress, to much making decisions, (find it hard making decisions), and believe me, i used to masturbate ALOT!!

So now im just being healthy, might go doctors for check up, and just be healthy, and not masturbate anymore...I would like to hear from more people about this..

Thankyou all,

Guest · Guest

Maybe u have a brain tumor get checked. Otherwise its evil spirits in your head visit a church to get prayed for

zagnut · Newbie Joined: 29 Jun 2008 Posts: 1

First off, either the same person is writing and answering more than one of these posts, or there's an epidemic of exact bad spelling. Anyway, everybody jerks off, but the kind of salami slamming you're talking about I know well. Jerking off over and over again well after ejaculation and orgasm have stopped occuring. The strain on body and mind is tremendous not to mention the depletion of seratonin, dopamine, ect, which lead to depression, lack of energy, headaches, and a general displaced feeling..... I used to tighten every muscle in my body upon orgasm and in doing this actually built up my muscles, just like Isometrics. So, to conclude, I believe that it is very possible to hurt yourself through masterbation and you may very well have done damage to yourself through over exertion.

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