Guilt After abortion; feeling alone and disgusted

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After having an abortion I feel like a bad person inside. My fiance wasn't very supportive to me and i sort of resent him for that. He never said i had to have an abortion but i knew he didnt and wasnt ready for a child. He always said if you want to have this kid go ahead but i dont think we are ready, which was not very comforting. He wouldnt let me vent or talk to him about it and when i would start to cry uncontrollably he would say can you please stop! and then go on to say i cant deal with this im goign to go. I almost got to the point that i was going to tell my mom and he would not let me and got very angry. I felt as though i had no one to talk to because i couldnt even talk to my own partner about it because he couldnt "deal" with it. I love him to death but i feel as though he was acting childish and selfish like he was the only one suffering through it. Now i feel anger inside because he is like untouched by it and i still think about what ive done frequently and i get scared that one day i wont be able to have a child. I feel like our relationship isnt completely worthy becuase we cant talk to eachother about the abortion and how we feel. This happened 8 months ago and i dont know whether to just try to move on or bring it up because i know he'll get angry. Confused...

BedsonTrudeau · Moderator Joined: 02 Jan 2007 Posts: 942

I am so sorry that you're going through this. This is obviously excruciating.

I suggest you get in contact with an abortion support group and/or a psychologist. You can probably get in contact with both if you ask your local Planned Parenthood.

You may also want to reevaluate your relationship with your fiance. If he hasn't been supporting you and you've been depressed because of it, you may want to distance yourself from him for at least a little while. That's only a suggestion.

Guilt After abortion; feeling alone and disgusted

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