This makes me sad and you said "please help", so I will give you my two cents -- don't get mad!
Maybe if, instead of blaming the drugs for your problems, you'd take look at yourself and your own motives then you might be able to get past your addictive behavior. It doesn't even sound like your discussing addictive medications, but maybe there is some hidden meaning in your words I am not catching?
Using anything, be it medication or food or sex, as an excuse, crutch or escape from reality is
baaaaaad news and points to a mental "problem" in my opinion. I don't mean you are psycho, or even that you have a legitamite mental "disorder" like depression or bipolar (though you very well might). You may simply be in denial that you are in a bad relationship and don't have the guts to end it...and so you try and find a way to make yourself feel better or forget, for example.
Anyways, can I offer you advice? Take a vacation. Break your routine. Reevaluate your motives and take control of your life. It really sounds like you are making yourself miserable and with a little common sense applied to your decision making processes you could be much happier and ditch the bad habits! See a psychologist if you need help.
Good luck, I truly believe every person deserves to find happiness and I wish it upon you!
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