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tryinaquit2 · Newbie Joined: 12 Mar 2007 Posts: 2

Hi everybody! Congrats on your decision to quit somking ( if that is indeed what you have decided to do).I usually don't join these forums, but I felt really connected to some of these stories and it seems like a good place to talk to other people about what I am going through.

I am a 26 year old female, and I am in college. I have been smoking for about a year and three months now-- nonstop. I started out smoking with one of my friends, whom has been smoking for years and is 22. I had never really been introduced to it before. I mean, I tried it, but I never knew that you could become totally dependant on it. I am here to tell you that you can. I slowly started to become addicted to the feelings that smoking gave me. I was depressed my whole life and had bad anxiety and PTSD from years of abuse and it supressed alot of the memories I did not want to recall. I started smoking and found myself laughing again and feeling like nothing really mattered. I wanted to isolate myself and watch tv stoned all day and laugh and not deal with anything. That was the problem. I would only become friends with people who smoked or attend activities in which I could come stoned. I could only go to the movies baked. I only wanted to hang out in bars baked. All of the sudden, I needed to be stoned to do ANYTHING. Of course, I started to make my own connections. I could walk into a bar and pick up a bag of weed in an hour. I had a dealer at work who would come with bags every payday. On my days off, it was WAKE N BAKE. I couldn't wait to get home from work so I could smoke again. I would smoke until bedtime. 5, 6 bowls a day. I looked at work like an aggrivation because it got in the way of my smoking. Sometimes I would leave early just to smoke and 'forget about my problems'. My dealer got fired and we lost touch, but my best friend got involved with someone who smoked heavily, and they would deliver to me weekly. If I didn't have money, they would give it to me.

It's been two weeks now. ONLY TWO WEEKS! I decided I needed to quit for a few reasons. I was hurting people I love. When I did not have weed, I would be so irritable and angry and say the most awful things to them. I thought I could not sleep without smoking. I thought I needed to smoke to eat food. Everything was so much better when I was stoned. I decided that that's not the way to live and that I was going broke quickly. My bills were piling up and I did not care as long as I had weed. ( Weed lasts so much longer than any other vice!) I started to feel distant and disconnected from everyone in my life. I am an emotional person and the weed took out every emotion from my brain. I didn't know if I liked that after awhile. I became a robot. My judgement was so messed up. My feelings were not genuine. I said what I thought I should but felt NOTHING. I was so paranoid at work, I was so unstable when I couldn't smoke. I decided that I could just get on anti-depressants and some xanax which equals the cost of weed-- which is what I did.

It's hard. People that don't smoke weed daily or never have do not understand. They think it is in our heads since it's not as hardcore as heroin, crack, or cocaine. The truth is that weed REALLY HELPS people with depression and anxiety disorders. I have tried coke on a number of occasions-- it just isn't my thing. Since I am naturally anxious, it made me even worse. I would just sit in the bed and stare at the ceiling and stare at it. I wanted to be alone. Weed just made me happy. Ecstasy never did anything for me. A little tingling--some warmth-- nothing like weed. Weed-- that was what I was becoming. Weed-- it's what I still remain. Please do not come on here to say that weed is not addictive. It changes your brain chemicals and is like any other habit-- hard to break and unhealthy and ADDICTIVE.

I think people who are likely to become 'addicted' to weed are already depressed and anxious over something, or somethings.

I think about weed everyday. Every little thing that does not go right triggers a thought in my head-- if I only had some weed. I am tired all the time. I'm not hungry. I get full after a few bites. I have been drinking to take the place of the weed which helps but is becoming a problem now. (just ask the police!) I'm taking my medication but it's nothing like inhaling some marijuana. I'm smoking cigs to try to fool myself. I've convinced myself that it relaxes me, but I don't want another bad habit. I have panic attacks-- severe-- and I still remain paranoid and cloudy and disconnected. I have back pain and get nauseous alot. Sometimes I chew food just because I need to. I have no desire to. I resent my life and everything about it. I am angry. I get set off at the smallest things-- I have had a few road rage incidents that would not make my parents proud. Everything feels like it's so overwhelming. I think really bad things about people that have done nothing to me, really. I take out my anger on the people I love-- still. I'll pop any pill I find still. I'm not sure I am strong enough to get through this.

I know my treatment is in the early stages. My best friend has decided to quit also, which is good.. but her boyfriend is pushing to get back on it and I am tempted myself. I just wanted to talk to others and let them know they are not alone. I also need some support here since I feel fragile. Everywhere I go, people are smoking. I see the slit eyes on others when I am driving and I think, they are so lucky to be stoned. I miss smoking. I sometimes think if I can just puff one time, everything will be fixed. Then I have another thought-- do I want to go through this again? I have come so far. But it's so hard. Everything seems like an uphill battle. But then again, I probably wouldn't have that uphill option if I had kept smoking.

Please-- any feedback or advice is welcomed. Sorry this is so long- it feels goot to get this out. I wish everyone luck in their recovery.

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I HAVE SMOKED HEAVILY FOR ABOUT 12 YEARS!!!! AND NOW I HAVE TO STOP!(FOR COURT BULLSHIT) ANYWAY ITS ABOUT TIME TO STOP. AT TIMES I WAS SMOKING AN 3.5-5 GRAMS A DAY! WHICH COSTS 50-70$$$ A LOT OF CASH GOING INTO MY LUNGS!!!! JUST TO DEAL WITH MY PROBLEMS AND INNER ANGER ISSUES,DEPRESSION FROM DIVORCE, ETC... Rolling Eyes

I HAVE WEENED MYSELF DOWN TO NO MORE THAN A GRAM PER DAY(THIS IS GOOD ASS BUD THOUGH, SO THE THC LEVELS ARE VERY HIGH) NOW THAT THE COURT SYSTEM IS TESTING ME, SINCE I AM ON PROBATION NOW FOR GETTING PULED OVER WITH 1 f@#$^&* JOINT ON ME!!!(PLEASE POLICE GO AFTER THE REAL CRIMINALS!!! POT HASNT KILLED AS MANY PEOPLE AS OTHER STUFF LIKE DRUNK DRIVING!! ANYWAY, THE LAST TIME I QUIT WHEN I WENT THRU MY DIVORCE, I USED DRINKING AS MY VICE, AND GAINED A LOT OF WEIGHT AND COKE CONNECTIONS AT THE BAR SCENES!!!(I SEEM TO GET INTO TROUBLE WHEREVER I'M AT) SO I DRANK AND DID COCAINE FOR ABOUT 3 MONTHS WHILE BEING WEED FREE IN THE PAST 12 YEARS, BUT OTHER THAN THAT, I HAVE JUST BEENN SMOKIN THE BEST WEED YOU COULD IMAGINE! MAYBE IF I MOVED TO CALI AN GET MEDICINAL MARIJUANA! CUZ THE SHIT SHOULD BE LEGAL ANYWAY FOR PEOPLE THAT NEED IT!
THIS IS MY FIRST NIGHT WITHOUT SMOKING BEFORE BED, BUT I HAVE VALIUMS,XANEX, AND TRAZADONE PILLS TO TAKE, BUT DOUBT THAT THEY WILL PUT ME TO SLEEP,,,BTW I TOTALLY SYMPATHIZE WITH THE POST BEFORE MINE FROM THE GIRL THAT HASNT SMOKED FOR 3 WEEKS, HOPE TO BE WHERE YOU ARE, 3 WEEKS FROM NOW!! I NEED HELP THOUGH, IF ANY BODY WANTS TO EMAIL ME WITH SUGGESTIONS OR WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT, OR WHATEVER MY EMAIL IS: cnotebraden@gmail.com THANKS FOR ANY HELP.I DONT CHECK THIS WEBSITE MUCH, SO IF YOU HAVE ANY IDEAS THAT MIGHT HELP ME QUIT FOR GOOD OR IF YOU JUST WANT TO TALK TO A 27 YR OLD GUY THATS QUITTING WEED FOR GOOD THEN JUST SEND ME AN EMAIL, OR EVEN CALL(480-274-3231) I'D LOVE TO TALK TO ANYONE THAT MIGHT HELP OR NEED HELP!!!! I DO KNOW A LOT ABOUT MEDICATIONS TOO, IF ANYONE HAS ANY QUESTIONS...MY NAME IS CURTIS, I AM 27 YRS. OLD SORRY MY MSG IS SO DAMN LONG, BUT I'M TRYING TO KEEP MY MIND OFF OF SMOKING WEED, ITS EASY FOR ME TO GET, IT'S UP TO MY WILL-POWER NOW!!! THANKS FOR ANY HHHEELLLLPPPPP!!!! "ADDICTS ARE PEOPLE TOO" THEY JUST HAVE A DISEASE. I JUST MADE THAT UP! HA!!

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Well i just thought i would said congrats for trying to quit smoking weed but VALIUMS,XANEX, AND TRAZADONE PILLS geez your far better off smoking weed, it grows from the earth its natural i dont understand why any doctor would prescribe and "addict" this crap to stop smoking weed...its worse than the drug your trying to stop taking :S...actually do you even know whats in those pills? I know i dont but i bet its no good for ya...heck in 5 years they will gather enough evidence from poor people they convinced to take this crap to discontinue its use....hmmm valium addict or pot??? I'll take the pot thanks!!!

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I have to agree with the last post as far as the "PILLS" the doctors give you. They have way worse side effects than weed by far...I have had my share of addictions problems in my life and weed is cotrollable! I have been prescribed Prozac, Melleril, and Wellbutrin in the past and the only thing that I can say about those is STAY AWAY FROM THEM!! They cause blackouts, rage, violence, severe weight gain (I went from 120 to 275 in 6 mo. and slept 20 hrs a day) and other side effects. Doctors are not sure of all of the effects of these meds and only some of them work some of the time. I have even self medicated with xanax, coke, meth, and alcohol, all of which I have been clean from for over 7 years (not without the occasional relapse, of course, but no relapse in 3 years, yeah 4 me...lol), and all I have home detoxed from (for anyone who has done this knows just how freakin hard that is!!). I still smoke cigs and weed from time to time, now I am trying to quit cigs, with the help of chantix(cuz I can't do this one by myself, I've tried 5 times and even chantix has side effects...for me it is nausea and bad nightmares), but I can say it is working and weed does help a bit with the nausea. Cigs, the pills, and alcohol are legall yet way more harmful. Make your own decisions, but listen to other's experiences.

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