Marajuana really can destroy your life

MVP · Newbie Joined: 11 Oct 2007 Posts: 2

Hi. I am 26 years old and have been smoking weed for about 10 years now. I took almost 2 years off, but I basically smoke everyday if I have some. I have been married for almost 5 years and I have 2 children – a 4 month old boy and a 4 year old daughter. I have a very beautiful family and I want to stay with them forever. I have a good entry-level career (Microsoft Marketing) and we have a nice little house and nice cars, and lots of nice stuff. I guess you could say, on the surface, my life is as close to “perfect” as it gets.

My wife does not smoke pot (she never has) and she does not want me to smoke either. I smoked when we met, but after I quit (for 2 years) she admitted that it bothered her. I now smoke about 1 or 2 bowls per day from the pipe, at least 6 days a week, all without her knowledge. Actually, I’m sure she knows I smoke occassionally, but I don’t come forward and say “yeah, I smoke everyday at lunch and on my way home” or whatever. I can definitely say that smoking has affected me (and others close to me) in a negative way.

I have been bouncing from job to job over the last 4 years, very unsure of what I really want to do with my life. They have been good jobs that challenge me and pay well, but I haven’t really found my passion yet. I get headaches daily and have to take at least 3 to 4 Excedrin every day. My sinus passages are all screwed up and I have to use a nasal spray every day just to breathe normally (which I dilute with saline solution, to prevent any hardcore damage). I have trouble focusing and usually (unintentionally) tune out whoever is talking to me (wife, boss, daughter, friends, etc), and I usually forget the little details that make ALL the difference. I wake up late almost every morning and have to speed my ass off to get to work, and I get really stressed and can feel my heart racing. I usually show up at least 5 to 10 minutes late every day, which has caused my boss to pull me into a room and rip me apart. I have lost any muscle mass that I used to have and now I’m a 6’2” skinny, weak guy with a nice spare tire. I have chicken legs and puny arms, but my waistline is steadily growing from all the midnight munchies. I was hooked on energy drinks for a period of time (to combat the drowsiness that pot causes), but stopped drinking them after my heart began to “flutter” as I was trying to go to sleep each night. I used to be an honors student (even more advanced than honors for some subjects) before I started smoking. I did make the Dean’s List in college during the time I wasn’t smoking. I used to be a hardcore skateboarder, and my only addiction was skating. I gradually stopped skating when I started smoking pot.

I absolutely fell in love with the herb and I still love it just as much. It makes me feel good. It makes me less stressed out. It makes me get more accomplished when I’m high. I’m really lazy and unmotivated when I’m sober. That’s how I know I’m addicted. I've tried several times to go a week or 2 without it and I kept getting HORRIBLE mood swings and really bad headaches. I was just a mess. Then I got more pot and everything seemed fine again. I got high and began to think about my mood swings and was like “wow, I was acting like a complete fool when I didn’t have weed”. It was a scary revelation. I know I need to quit.

Every time I buy a sack, I tell myself it will be my last one. I have even thrown multiple glass pipes and full bags of hydro and shwag (sp?) out the window on the freeway, thinking I was going to give it up for good. But what happens? I make the phone call or text message a friend, I go to the head shop and buy a new piece (usually cheap $10 glass pipes), and I get a dime or maybe a quarter of herb. I’ll splurge for some good dro if I have a reason to celebrate. I’m very conservative with my herb and can make a quarter sack (7 to 8 grams) easily last 3 to 4 weeks, so I only smoke about 2 grams per week, which really isn’t much, but still more than 90% of the U.S. population.

The hardest thing about this situation is that some of my BEST friends smoke (I’ve known these guys since I was a child) and I usually get them to hook me up. And my 21 year old brother-in-law smokes and has a VERY consistent dealer. I got him high for the first time about a year ago, and now he smokes MASSIVE amounts of herb every day and his life is falling apart. I feel very guilty. I never knew that he would get so addicted. I thought I was doing him a favor because his girlfriend of 4 years cheated on him and he was really angry and depressed. He was drinking A LOT and I wanted to expose him to something less harmful that could help him deal with his pain. I thought maybe he would smoke every once in a while, but I never wanted him to become dependent on the herb. Now he is drinking heavily, smoking heavily, abusing Xanax, and even snorting coke occasionally. I feel like this is all my fault.

As you can see, pot really does destroys lives. It prevents people from realizing their full potential and causes numerous health and emotional problems. It changes the way people think. It’s just not worth it. I’m struggling every day. I want to quit, but I love herb so much and I just don’t know how to successfully quit. I don’t have the self-discipline to stop myself from picking up the phone and placing another order. Please pray for me. Any advice would be much appreciated!

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Most people can't quit drugs by going cold turkey be it coffee or cannabis, you can try reducing the ammount you smoke every week graduly using less an less untill you stop. Then theres the method of going to a doctors an getting a cannabis supplement to replace the THC you get from cannabis.

Im 23 an ive smoke cannabis for last 10 years since i was 13, the only problem ive found is it just makes you lazy, ive worked as a electrician for last 6 years fine. I grow my own marijuana about 3 plants evey 4 months for personal use, an i normaly smoke 1 ounce an month at 1 gram aday.

Now if i want an also have done, i can stop at will and not smoke for months on end. I dont smoke cigarettes an i only use them for making joints.

To start off maybe have a joint as soon as you get in from work, idk get a hobby or spend time with your kids (someting to up your mood) an as the night is ending have a spliff to finish off the hard day,

For me cannabis is all around me, my mum/step dad/grandad use to smoke it, my nan/aunte/best friend/cousin and girlfriend still smoke it.

id sugest you

1, make that 1/4 last you 4 weeks, then 6 weeks then 8 weeks n so on
2, smoke skip 1 day, smoke skip 2 days, smoke skip 3 days an so on
3, go see a doctor an get a prescription, THC is available in capsule form as the prescription drug dronabinol (goes under the market name of Marinol)

Marajuana really can destroy your life

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