REALLY DEPRESSED, NOW CUTTING MYSELF AGAIN.. PREGNANT AND LOST!

almost_there1136 · Newbie Joined: 23 Mar 2007 Posts: 34

ABOUT 21 WEEKS.. CANT SEEM TO GET THE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS OUT MY HEAD AS HARD AS I TRY. IVE BEEN CRYING FOR A WHOLE MONTH STRAIGHT..(LITERALLY).. I KEEP TRYING TO THINK ABOUT OTHER THINGS EVEN TRIED SINGING A HAPPY SONG WHILE BAD THOUGHTS GO THRU MY HEAD.. THINKING ABOUT THE BABY OR LOOKING AROUND THE ROOM FOR ITEMS TO THINK ABOUT.. THEIR COLOR OR WHAT IT IS OR SPELL IT OUT JUST TO GET IT OUT MY MIND.. BUT IT WONT WORK AND MY DR's APPT. ISNT TIL NEXT WEEK.. I STARTED CUTTING MYSELF AGAIN LAST NIGHT CUZ I JUST CANT TAKE THE PAIN.. DO YOU THINK THIS IS SEVERE DEPRESSION?

jelly.bean · Newbie Joined: 10 Apr 2007 Posts: 4

I would definitly get it checked out. If the doctor's appointment is next week try looking forward to the appointment. Once you are diagnosed you may feel better about your future. Until then, try talking to someone everytime you have bad thoughts. Tell them what you are thinking andtry to figure out why it makes you feel bad. I had depression due to stress a couple years ago and I had to not only talk my head off to get my brain clear of everything but I also worked with a councilor to find ways to manage my stress. What ever you do though, don't hurt yourself. Every time you hurt yourself, you hurt your baby and the ones around you. Have you tried taking a hot bath? I hope this helps!

almost_there1136 · Newbie Joined: 23 Mar 2007 Posts: 34

ive tried talking.. theres no one to talk to anymore.. i took a hot bath last night.. that didnt work either... but i'm definitely looking forward to my dr.s appt next week! i know its hurting the baby thats why i really want real help this time.

thanks for the feedback! Smile

jelly.bean · Newbie Joined: 10 Apr 2007 Posts: 4

well if you ever need anyone to talk to you can e-mail me! i'm usually around all day

ImmortalOne · Gold Member Joined: 05 Jan 2007 Posts: 437

I'm hoping that you get this message soon. I know what you are going through, and cutting is a sign of extreme mental health concerns. Mostly bi-polar and borderline personality. I know this because I have dealt with it for years.

In fact, last week I had the same problem, it took everything I had to not start cutting again and turned to my fiancee' and my doctors for help. I'm 20weeks and 4days pregnant. Based on that depression and what I was starting to feel, I've been doing so well for more than a year!, the doctors (my OBGYN) prescribed Celexa. It is a class C medication, but they had to weigh the benefits against the potential risks. It has helped me immensely, and nearly immediately.

I encourage you to see your doctor, make the call, tell them what is going on and show the effort to get better so they are willing to help you and not try to worry about you so much to hospitalize you.

naffthegiraffe · Newbie Joined: 06 Apr 2008 Posts: 2

i can relate to everything you're all saying. i was in a mental hospital for about two weeks because of cutting. now i think im pregnant. im 16 and its really hard to bear all of this on my own.

astarr · Newbie Joined: 17 Apr 2008 Posts: 6

Listen, im 29 years old and have been through a life of hell growing up. Which later caused me to be depressed and cut. Well after several counselors and internet searching, I was diagnosed with a disease called Borderline Personaity Disorder. There are like 6 main symptoms and cutting is at the top of the list. Look it up on the net, the talk to a professional. I know take a medication called abilify, which is the best thing Ive ever found. Im 5 1/2 months pregnant, I have been on these meds for 2 years. Abilify is category C and my baby is in great health and acutally bigger than he should be. Smile

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