Suboxone usage

SB · Newbie Joined: 15 Apr 2006 Posts: 1 Location: Baltimore

Hi. I'm 27 years old and I have a problem with oxycontin use. I took 3 80's a day...at least. I went to doctors and called over 30 places to get help and no one would help me. I have a Monday thru Friday job and I got caught up in the addiction by accident. I want help more than you can imagine and everyone says "come back everyday Monday thru Friday and sit it a meeting" and you take the stuff there while sitting with a bunch of people I don't know and don't have time to get to know.

I have a good job (that doesn't know) and a great supportive family and want to get help. I'm not being forced. It's pretty sad that when you call places and beg for help, no one will. I really believe that is why there are so many people addicted to this powerful drug.

VERY LONG STORY SHORT, VERY LONG. My mother went out and found suboxone for me. It's pretty sad that you have to find it on the street in order to get help. She bought me 5 orange pills to put on my tounge for $100. I've never seen them before. I went to my neighborhood pharmacy dude...very cool guy and he wished me luck, looked at the pill to varify for me that's what it was, he gave me a print out telling me what the side effects were and how to use the medication...which was so cool cause I would have never known any better.

My last oxy was yesterday morning(4/14/6) at around 10:30. I didn't use the soboxone until 2:30 in the morning Saturday. I couldnt sleep and started withdraw from the oxy. I put it under my tounge, yuck, but it could be much much worse. I fell asleep about an hour later and had to take another one at 10:30am. I had a couple 5 mg percocets and I took them. I don't feel too bad at all actually. Not great, but the alternative is much worse. I get really hot all at once and start to sweat, then the chills for a minute or two.

I defenitly don't feel like death, like I would without these, but I still feel weird. I guess I'll keep it up for a few more days and then stop because I don't ever want to be depended on a pill to live my life again. I just thought I'd tell my experience cause this is a very hard choice to make. It's so hard to stop and when it's so hard to get help it makes it much worse. No one understands unless you have been in this poistion. Good luck to anyone dealing with this. It's tough....Sorry the message was so long, it's just really hard to keep it all in....

Bobby · Moderator Joined: 11 Aug 2005 Posts: 389

Hey you, thanks for sharing your story, if anyone else has the problem with anything similar and comes across this post, I guess it would be useful for them, as there is you having a desire to get rid of these hard drugs which are very much addictive and you want to live your life without them once for good. I just don’t know what in particular should be the best sentence to say in order to help, you know you have to decide it yourself, after you decide you have to be strong and never to turn around and have doubts when you come across the first let. You know that the period of getting used to life without the drug would be tough and followed by lots of anxiety and other withdrawal symptoms, but once again, you have to be strong and determined enough to fight all the difficulties you will face on the way.
Maybe you could see the doc who might direct you to some other doctor specialized for such problems you have, if you are ready to ask for the professional help, that is.
However, I wish you all the good luck to survive the possible crisis and I’m keeping my fingers crossed for you!

dimstva · Newbie Joined: 27 Nov 2006 Posts: 3

I have ben on suboxone for over 3 years and have been going to NA very day, sometines twice/day for 1 year now. I am glad I started going and I I will make the NA recovery program a part of my life.
Good Luck

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