Hi. I'm 14, and i have this feeling i have touretts.
I have constant blinking of the eyes, moving my head like i am saying ''no'', and i cant focuss unless i have something to fidget with. but when i fidget with something, i just throw it around, which causes more of a distraction. Also when i get home from school, i start banging my head on my bedroom wall, but i try to control that, because it hurts after a while.
The constant blinking is really annoying, and at first i thought i was blinking because i couldnt see. My mother tells me to stop blinking, but as hard as i try, i cant. The blinking only happens at least 9 or 10 times a day, sometimes more if i am nervous.
I've seen touretts through siblings of my friends, and i know what its like. Before my friend's brother died, i had experienced the touretts where you twitch and yell things out.
In the middle of class, i sometimes just call out "um thats!", but i wasn't even aware of saying it.
My teacher asked if what she wrote on the board was wrong, but it wasnt.
I sometimes get weird looks from some people, but to me by now, it just feels normal.
I also have a problem with controlling my emotions. Like when i am sad, i'll hit myself in the head and always ask, "why why why".... but i have no idea why i am saying ''why''.
Anger, is also something i have a problem controlling.
I really hope someone can help me. |
