WITHDRAWL FROM TRAZADONE AND SERTRALINE?

:( crying and tired emotional wreck.

I recently went cold turkey off of Sertraline ( taking 200 mg/day for over 2 years). I did not WANT to go off my meds, since Zoloft has been a real life saver for me; however my insurance company requires that any presriptions that are "maintenance mediation" be refilled through Express Scripts. Let's just say they are NOT the best in customer service or delivery time.

I have been extremely dizzy, confused, and emotional. My emotions go from two extremes (crying to raging anger) in what can be seconds. I feel so bad for my family for having to put up with me. My husband keeps asking if I am on my period and my children have started avoiding me. I have been without my meds for 10 days and I have yet to experience any relief from the withdrawal.

BTW, I have phoned Express Scripts repeatedly and have still not gotten my issue resolved. This company is really pathetic; I was lied to by the customer service manager who informed me I could get meds from a local pharmacy WITHOUT a prescription (very illegal from what the pharmacist told me), I would only have to pay for the pills out of my own pocket.

I continue to hang in there by avoiding any social contact or interaction by trying to sleep most of the time. Smoking marijuana helps to take the edge off a bit so that I am not so violently angry. Still....waiting by the mailbox for relief.

I have been on Sertraline for over 12 months 50mg per day and was feeling far less intelligent than my previous self so I decided to stop. Also I am out of work (possibly because of same) and I can't afford them now.
First few days I stayed drunk, then had the worst hangover and suicidal thoughts with uncontrolable crying and fearfullness, hiding, curled up under my desk - I am a 48 year old male and have never experienced anything like this before. Having only one tablet per week, I started experiencing the head tingles and extreme dizziness particularly in the afternoon and diarrhoea. Sleeping is something I am now able to do for perhaps an hour at a time at best with the the most insane dreams - even more than my normally insane dreams. I had a half tablet yesterday and slept reasonably well last night but today I could rip the head off a tiger. Sooo cranky and I don't want to be. I have one and half tablets left and I just want to be myself again - a happy intelligent loony. I hop I can make it through this.