Weed & Cocaine, why am i feeling like this?

J2 · Newbie Joined: 06 Oct 2006 Posts: 4

Hi. I have been a chronic weed smoker for many years. Since I was about 15. I'm 23 now. For the last 4-5 years I would smoke at least 5 bong hits a day. I didn't discover cocaine- thank God- until I was 18. I didn't do it much then but within the last 3 years I would say I had been doing it about once a weekend if not more. 9 months ago I had to have an ambulance come and take me to the hospital because I had been partying all night until 8 in the morning and coming down off it made me feel like I was having a heart attack. When the ambulance guys came in to the house, my heart rate was at 180 bpm (double what it should be). When I got to the hospital they managed to regulate me and checked my heart to make sure I hadn't done any damage to it, which thankfully there was none. I swore I would never do coke again. Well, that plan worked for about a month but I have a lot of friends who do it, are dealers, etc. so it was very hard for me not to so I did it again. About a month and a half ago, my friends and I had another party night and stayed up late. When I came home, I was fine, I went to bed and passed out. When I woke up, a friend came over to smoke some bong hits. I took one bong hit, then another and immediately started getting bad anxiety, so bad I was this close to calling 911 again. Luckily my friend managed to calm me down and I went back to sleep thinking I would feel fine when I woke up. Nope. I still had very bad anxiety so I went to the walk-in as I remembered when I went to the hospital, they gave me lorazapan which calmed me down a lot. The doctor prescribed me 3 lorazapan, I took one right away and it did help. Until it wore off, the anxiety came right back and anytime I smoked a bong hit, it made it 100 times worse. I thought for sure there has to be something wrong with me. This time I know 100% I will never touch cocaine again. I've had to quit weed as well because like I said, it somehow makes this anxiety come worse. I've never had anxiety in my life before touching cocaine. Anyways, for the first 2 weeks after my party night, I had bad anxiety which still I'm getting once in a while but I can control it now. I went to see a therapist to help me out with that. After the 2 weeks, I was having some chest pains, like when I took a deep breath. Some days it felt like all day, some days not at all. In the last few weeks, I have felt off and on depressed, detached, surreal, which I'm assuming is the weed withdrawls. A lot for someone to deal with all at once, no? I have found that lately I'm feeling like such crap because all I've ever known really is being high and I'm not anymore. The world feels so different. I'm eating way more than I used to- double actually. I've gained about 7 pounds in the last few weeks, I have no motivation to do much- not that I did before, I just didn't really care as much. I sleep a lot more than normal, And the random chest pains I'm not sure if it's just me being a hypocondric or if it's associated with not doing cocaine and weed anymore or what. I'm not having any other symptoms- such as headaches, loss of sleep, weird dreams, just what I've mentioned before and I'm so upset because all of my friends are all having a good time doing what they're doing and I'm not. What can i do? Any help would be much appreciated. Sorry this is so long, but I feel so lost and do need help. Thanks for reading.

bkf · Newbie Joined: 19 Nov 2006 Posts: 1

J2-

Did these feelings ever go away? I'm having the exact same situation. I was a weekend user of Coke too. Two weeks ago I went to the hospital thinking the same thing. I turned out to be ok. But now some nights I get light headed and feel slight chest pressure. If I move my head in certain ways, it feels like I zone out for a split second. All of this of course makes me anxious and my heart rate goes up. If I take a couple of th Lorazepam, it helps. It's random. I can feel good all day, then all of a sudden. I'm just wondering when this will stop. I have gone cold turkey - it helps when at the time you want to go out that you start feeling bad.

Also...most importantly, if I'm able to quit cold turkey, will it reverse any damage I have done to my heart and mind. Can good nutrition help?

Guest · Guest

Interesting...
no helpful info, but recently I smoked some weed heavily laced with cocaine...my friends didn't tell me about the cocaine until a day later but it was the worst high i've ever had, my anxiety was soo bad that i thought i needed to go to the hospital (i couldn't though, i'd have gotten in major trouble) i'm still getting a bit of anxiety from time to time, especially being in the room where my anxiety after smoking was at it's peak. Some certain things trigger it like looking at the poster i stared at for hours (or what felt like hours) and sitting in the room when the light is dimmed like it was before or even just thinking about the dimmed room.
Do any of you guys get triggers?
I'm getting anxious even thinking about this. It's def. the coke though, not the weed.

J2 · Guest

Well, here's my update since it's been a while since I posted the first post. I don't have any anxiety at all anymore... it was bad at first but slowly tapered off. I couldn't even think about the night that got me 'screwed up' for a long time because it gave me anxiety. But now, I have none. I still feel random chest pains, and I'm scared to go to the doctor because what if there is something wrong with me? I do believe in holistic healing and have been trying to do natural healing on myself and stuff but like I said I still do have the chest pains. I haven't smoked weed now since September 2005 which is absolutely insane but I feel a lot better about that. I still feel a little detached/unreal once in a while but I'm not sure if that's still from the weed withdrawls or what... I just really pray that I can feel completely normal again. I'm on the verge of going to the doctors but like I said I'm very scared about that. What do you guys think?

Guest · Guest

man.. i have been down that paranoid road.. the problem with people like you and me is that drugs like weed make it miserable.. if you're already paranoid and you do a drug that makes you wig out.. etc etc.. maybe that didn't answer.. one thing you need to do first is just relax and forgive yourself a touch.. you'll never be perfect and no one is expecting you to be.. just own your situation.. address it to yourself.. there are free clinics you can go to discreetly for help if you are truly concerned.. good luck man!..

lumbee_beauty06 · Newbie Joined: 15 Feb 2007 Posts: 1

My name is Lauren...well i hit a water bong about a month ago...maybe jus a lil longer than that. im only 15 && i know my body isnt fully developed.Well ever since then i havent been feeling like my self.i feel a lil more tired than usual, i eat more than i used 2,i pee a lil more than i used 2,&& i kinna feel depressed.&& its like every thing is starting to frustrate me && get on my nerves.&& i am often paranoid now.I wanna feel normal && be able 2 have fun again....will this go away?Its like now im scared 2 go or do anything any more.I dont like feeling like this at all.I always think about negative things now.&& I dont like this at all some one please please please help me.email me at ******** or find me on myspace && talk 2 me... **********

ps.&& now i feel like mybf is getting on my nerves all the time && i dont want my feelings 2 fade 4 him because i kno i love him but sometimes i feel so depressed that i juss dont wanna be with him when i really do...ugh someone help me Sad

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Guest · Guest

i too have heavy anxiety after doing cocaine, and feelings that i let down my parents, friends, and myself. all my friends do it, its hard to get away from. *** cocaine.

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J2 · Newbie Joined: 06 Oct 2006 Posts: 4

well i went to the doctors, and got some heart tests done and there is nothing wrong. I think it is pretty much in my head. I still once in a while feel weird but I just try to push those feelings aside and fight them until I feel normal. I realllllllllly hope that one day I will feel 100% again and not ever have to worry about any of this BS. I haven't done coke for a really long time and same with weed so I definitely am feeling better about that for sure. And my body is probably thanking me too. Anyways, I will update again when and if I am feeling fully well.

Chillum · Newbie Joined: 01 Apr 2007 Posts: 1

Mixing alcohol and cocaine is not a good idea as the liver manufactures a third substance, cocaethylene, from the two compounds that intensifies cocaine's euphoric effects. The mixture of cocaine and alcohol is the most common two-drug combination that results in drug-related death.

Pepperh · Newbie Joined: 04 Apr 2007 Posts: 1 Location: UK

Hi,

I came across this thread and found it interesting that people were actually recommending a "better" way of doing things! Come on guys n gals... We should simply stop doing it, it is the only advice?

OK, I'm not naive; i have a problem too, and attempting to address this tonight. I have some difficulties that I can identify and even feel I know what it would take to stop the downward spiral which long-term canabis and/or cocaine use will always cause... But cannot bring myself to trust anyone face-to-face.

For those who believe this fallacy that cocaine is not addictive.... You are simply wrong. It is an addiction akin to cigarettes - in my opinion only - requiring approx the same strength and timeframe to give up. And the same as cigarettes, it will stay with you, each time you come in contact.

Does anyone want to chat about cocaine to seriously share experiences and problems - advice or assistance?? I would welcome a link to a thread that may be of assistance, or a Private message from someone who feels they may be on a level with me?

Kind Thanks.

Pep

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