i'm scared that my depersonalization wont go away

julzy19 · Guest

hi i have been suffering from depersonalization since the begining of the year. im only 15 and no matter how hard i try to think positive and that everything will be fine it never goes away. it started happening for a week and then it would go away but this time it has been 2weeks and it is hasnt gone away. my life dosnt seem real and when i look in the mirror its hard to belive that thats me. im on eleva and im not really sure if they are helping yet. what other medication is used for depersonalization?
thanks

Nik16 · Newbie Joined: 07 Apr 2007 Posts: 21

Hey,

I know that it's a pretty weird thing and it's definetly a scary expierience, but look at it this way. Depersonalization is just a symptom, that means that if you get rid of the underlining condition it will go away. I have had it for about 5 months but man Im feeling way better than I was before. Get some excercise, eat better, and remember you're still growing, which means hormones are still changing. It could be as simple as a vitamin deficiency. Are you depressed? If you are then there is little doubt that depersonalization is coming from the depression. Just remember that depersonalization is not chronic, Don't listen to those BS shrinks out there, they just want your money. The human body has been designed to cure itself from anything, this is just a phase in life, you'll be ok :)

Guest · Guest

i am only 16
i have had this depersonalization thing for like 2 months now, it happened one night when i was at work....i was walking and i just felt like i wansnt there so i checked my heart rate.. and i felt like i had an out of body experience....and since then i have basicly been in my room for the past few months and ive probly gotten out like once every 2 or 3 days but i always have an episode of depersonalization when im out,... its like things are going good then just like out of nowhere ill just feel like im not there.... and now its gotten worse...since the past 2 weeks or so i havent left the house at all im so afraid of everything i can barely leave my room.... even to go to the kitchen and make a meal is a big thing.....GOD i just cant handle it... ive developed all these weird coping mechanisims like checking my pulse.. take a deep breath... i dont know whats wrong,. now i think its gotten worse now i feel like so depressed, dont know what to do,, i dont know what makes me happy, when i look in the mirror i dont even reconize myself..i hear voices in my head and ringing in my ears and 2 months before this depersonalization problem started i had anxiety / seperation anxiety and it was so bad i felt like i was going to die,, and that i wasnt breathing and i could only breath through my mouth but i dont have the breathing thing anymore.... but every minute of every day i think that im going to die and i dont want to i want to survive but i just feel like mabye this life is too hard and well whats the point if theres so much trouble just to get through one day.... when i wake up all i can think about is how much i want the day to be over so i can go to sleep... ... i get these weird voices in my head saying "is this really me" "am i really here"
I dont know who i am or what i want to be or what i want to do with the rest of my life... i keep on getting this flash forward of what my lifes going to be if i continue with this,, but i dont know how to stop it...everything i do seems like a chore.. nothing brings me joy...i just dont know who to be.. i cant even leave my room im so afraid of dying or like going crazy..and not being there......im thinking it could be hormones or something......

when i look at who i am right now this state of being its not me and i just want it all to go away and be normal again.... but then when i think about it i think whats the point because im just going to have another episode and then im right back where i started....all i can think about is good memorys, memorys of me when i was a kid and things were simple... i dont know what the hell is going on.........cause when i think back on my life i was always trying to be someone else i always had this false confidence about myself....so i never really found out who i was so now im thinking its too late reality has set in.......

i dont know whats wrong.... i hope its not too late and things can return back to normal..

by the way this whole thing started like acoouple days after
one night i got drunk and stoned and i had never been like this in my life and everything was cool we were having a good time and laughing and shit and then the next second i felt so weird like i was having an out of body experience it was so freakky i felt like i was never going to come out of it ,it was like i was in a dreamland,.... and now thats what ive been feeling like now but im not drunk or stoned.. so i cant figure what it is...
and im like paranoid when my door is open to my room and someones coming so i shut it so i dont have to see them or talk to them..cause when i speak and the words come out of my mouth i dont reconize my voice and it then it makes me feel like im not there.. and im trying so hard not to feel like that.,.. there so tramatic..

like ive been thinking mabye it could be an
inner ear problem
diabetes
tumor
hypoglycemia
bipolar
schitzo

i wish i could just tak to somebody thats experiencing the same thing so they can help me

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Alot of people mention that it is important to be healthy by doing thing such as exercising and meditation. And i would completely agree with them and im just here to recommend a product that i have been using and it will help people like you alot as it did with me. I took 5 hits of acid and had a really really bad trip. Talk about being traumatized and ive been using this product call holosync and its a form of meditation. If you want to check it out go to centerpointe.com and she what it is all about. And on top of my really bad acid trip my girl was cheating on me and i was suffering from depersonalization really really bad. So pretty much I was DEPRESSED!. It was almost as bad as it gets. And what holosync does is that it can cure pretty much any feeling that makes you feel uncomfortable. iv been using it for 1 month now and i can believe how much it has reduced my stress levels. I really think that it could be that answer to your problems. And go to baronmasteryinsitiute.com and check out EFM audio technology cuz that can help you focus on things you want in your life. AND IF YOU DO GET THESE PRODUCT. DONT. I REPEAT DONT THEM ON YOUR IPOD OR MP3 PLAYER CUZ THAT TECHNOLOGY COMPRESSES MUSIC AND IT WILL MAKE THE TAPES DEFECTIVE. I RECOMMEND GETTING GOOD STERIO HEADPHONES WITHOUT. I REPEAT WITHOUT NOISE CANCELLING AND I LISTEN TO THE TAPES OFF A CD PLAYER. but if really want them on your ipod learn how to confert the files to AIFF or WAV files by going to itunes help. I HOPE THIS HELPS

relating to you · Newbie Joined: 26 Jul 2008 Posts: 2

You said......"cause when i think back on my life i was always trying to be someone else". That may be the root of your anxiety and that's not your fault. Someone else; maybe society, the media, teachers, t.v., friends, parents or any or all of the above were trying to pressure you to be someone else who you are not.

Your anxiety is you rebelling against that inside of yourself because you don't know what to do with that pressure and you can't find a safe way to reject who they want you to be. Who do you want to be? Who are you deep inside? These questions, although difficult to answer may be your key to releasing yourself from this anxiety. These questions must be answered inside your self, honestly and totally.

You are a very loving person because you have sub-conciously elected to take this pressure into your self instead of taking this out on someone else. Now you need to set your self free. Who do you want to be? If a genie gave you a wish, who would you wish to be? Inside, under your fear you are already that wish.

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