lclc08
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 Posted: 07/14/08 - 10:36 Post subject: pregnant,scared and very confused |
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hi guys, really hope someone can help me.
I'm 21yrs old, have been in a relationship with my b/f for approx 3 yrs now and are expecting our 1st child. I have been in a number of straight relationships over the years and have always been satisfied and loved having sex with men. My boyfriend more than satisfies me in the bedroom but i find that i am also turned on by girl on girl sex/porn. When masturbating i find i am arroused by this too but i have recently been questioning 'does this make me a lesbian?'.I have snogged and been fingered by a girl before  , and we both enjoyed it, but i think this was more of a drunken experiment with the best m8t kinda thing.I dont think i could see myself going any further sexually and deffinatley don't want a relationship with a girl in real life, but i find when fantasizing i think up allsorts of rude things! i do look at some girls and think (god she's really pretty!),but (especially since i've been pregnant), i've found this little voice in my head saying that means i want her sexually and absolutley convincing myself i'm gay, although i am still attracted to men too.I have spoken to my boyfriend about this and he's been very supportive but im still scared to death! I'm going through pe-natal depression at the moment and crying uncontrollably evryday,thinking of harming myself, not sleeping, not eating and these thoughts don't help! it's like im in a different world.I just don't know who i am or what to do anymore!! 
hope someone can help, thanks x |
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