Feeling depressed after stopping the birth control pills?

HI Heather
Not sure if you are still posting here, just wanted to find out how you doing now?
I stopped the pill August 2018 and was ok for the first month or so I thought but in hindsight I saw the depression start, and I couldn't understand where it was coming from. And then about a month later I had a complete meltdown for about 2 weeks where I would wake up having a panic attack, that would last most of the morning and start easing in the afternoon. To cut a lont story short, I've been where you were, i'm at month 4 after this all started and I'm feeling better but not 100% yet. This month's cycle has been rough to be honest with depression and hopelessness and have had more nervousness in the morning again. The afternoons are better. Ive basically been using a lot of natural supplements, which are helping but I guess I just want to know that this wont last forever. I also have moments where I get so frustrated and wonder if I've ever going to be myself again..... of if this is now my life.... battling through each day. I was so looking forward to having children but since this ordeal, its the one thing that scares me now an no longer sure I want kids (till the good days come, then I want them again lol )

This cycle, I also felt at my worst after my period. today is cycle day 15 and i'm slowly starting feel better

I also had vision issues, I already ware prescription glasses so it felt like my vision got more blurry. Not sure if you taking any supplements but it helps and so does eliminating coffee and sugar. Look up a lady. By the name Jolene Brighten on google she give a good explanation of what’s happening and what sups to take. For the anxiety maybe ask at a health shop for GABA or ashwagarn root that help tremendously. Magnesium
, zinc, b6 and b12 and vit c... up to 2000mg a day to support adrenals. Also try get and pre and pro biotic combo ....

Time will be the cure. whats weird for me is that when I was in my 20's I never struggled like this when going off the pill. I was on it twice before in my life, the first time was 6 months and I stopped because I was developing ovarian cycsts and I period like cramping 24/7 which was terrible. the only side effect then was no period for a year till a Dr gave me something to trigger it. about 7 years later I went on to Yasmin, and stopped it a year later, don't recall any symptoms but this time.... I started a new pill called Zoely, was on it for about 1 year 5 months and was happy for the first year. I had breakthrough bleeds for about 3 months then it stopped and would get my period every second or third month and it was more like your last day of a normal period where it tappers off. Then I started noticing nervousness and I felt restless and, my heart would start racing for no reason while I'm sitting at my desk working and I used to struggle in gym with my breathing when doing HIIT or running. Anyways, my gynea told me to stop after I told him what was going on and said that given I was 35, its probably time to have kids (i'm now 36) the first month off was fine , I even ovulated and had period which was a flood and so painful I nearly went to the ER. Have had a period every month around the same time so that's good. But emotionally and mentally, I've been so unstable, and what scared me the most was that I've never experienced anything so crazy in my life. I honestly thought I was going crazy. When I found this forum I was so releaved but the process has been slow and I have days where I just get so frustrated and wonder if it will ever be normal again, as though this never happened. I look back and see that's theres been a hugged improvement. I'm not 100% and struggle with a sense of hopelessness and crying. The afternoons always seem better so I just keep telling myself to push through and keep going now matter how bad some days get.

Thanks so much for your encouragement, and for shining hope that this wont last forever :-) Glad you are feeling much better, I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy to be honest. I also struggle during ovulation with the thoughts. Had 2 really good weeks in December so when it started getting bad again I got worried that I was going backwards. Been feeling better the last 2-3 days again thank the Lord. I'm also doing what you doing and retraining my mind

HI Brea, the intrusive thoughts stopped about 4 weeks ago... now its just TERRIBLE boughts of depression / hopelessness and I feel so exhausted at the thought of the future. Like do I really have to carry on. Then the "cloud" clears and I feel myself again. BUT in the beginning I was afraid to be alone with my husband (weve only been married 2 years next month)I felt trapped in my marriage. I started the pill tabout 2 weeks before we got married, and the week of our honeymoon is when I went into a state of panic about whether I had married the right person so I know that was hormones talking. so those thoughts stopped and then it became a case of "please don't leave me" was scared I was going to loose him so spent my days praying to the Lord for his protection. That still creeps up on me at times. Then I went through a stage where I felt like nothing was real, that everything was a dream, that freaked me out a lot and would set off major panic attacks. Then there was a time when the world seemed strangely shaped to me, I felt trapped and clastraphobic in it... unsafe, the only place I felt safe was at home with my hubby. everything around me triggered a panic attack and my body would just shake uncontrollably. I was afraid to sleep because I kept waking up in a panic. Even my dreams were weird.Anyways, I did a lot of research, still do and the info is all the same.... the pill depletes nutrients and amino acids and if you've already been running on too much stress , your entire endocrine system "breaks" for lack of a better word. I had a friend who knew before I did what was happening to me and why and started helping with as did my mom cause she went through this exact thing during menaupause. !!!! so the key is to give our bodies time, nourish them with good food, take supplements (magnesium , vit c, vit b5, b6, b12, omega 3, pre and probiotic combo, and maybe GABA were necessary. The literature says it helps with the racing thoughts and actual physical anxiety. I found I have to take high doses of Vit C (3000mg) per day and high omega 3 as this is anti - inflamatory which helps with your brian functioning better. Walking and cycling helped once I started getting stronger too.... (stopped training for 2 months)

My last cycle was 35 days. also struggled with nausea. the struggle to string sentences together is probably due to brain fog.... a good pre and pro biotic combo will help with that along with Omega 3
how long have you been off birth control?