hey there. i’m 12 years old, going on 13, and i’m 185 pounds (lbs) and i hate my body and self for it. i tell myself im fine and cry every time i see myself. i’ve been trying my best to starve myself and become skinnier but it just hasn’t worked. i always go back to food. and if i try to not eat and someone notices, they force me to eat and tell me to eat. i’m depressed and i keep everything bottled inside me. i guess that’s also weight that is on me. i feel like i get judged so much by others when really, it’s myself. i don’t like apple cider vinegar so i can’t do that. the only other thing that i can do is to starve myself or puke all that i’ve eaten. deep down inside, i’m not okay.