I am so discouraged when I read everyones trouble with withdrawal. I cant imagine going on like this much longer. What a sorry mistake this was. Plus, I feel like a whale. If only I could go back 30 days and never try this poisoinous pill. I never post about anything but I figure if one person reads this and decides not to take zoloft because of it, it is worth my experience. But, I imagine people will read this warning and think it cant happen to them, just like I did thrity days ago when I read everyones horrific accounts and said, "ah, it wont be like that for me". There are so few positive reports about zoloft and so many negative...chances are, it will be the same for you...to those who havent..dont! For those who have, Lord have mercy on us.
Research St Johns Wort as an alternative, I hear so much good about it and it doesnt have side effects...its where i'll turn if I ever fully recover from this nightmare.
This is how I feel from the Zoloft Wellbutron withdrawals ---->
Just for the record I am a 48 yr old woman, so you are not reading this from some youngster. Just so you know.
I have tapered myself off the Zoloft and Wellbutron at the same time. I started on my own by slicing more and more off the pills each time I had to take them. I took a razor blade and sliced more and more. I had to do this MY way as my doctor told me to do it the every other day thing then every two days, etc...
Well, I am one to forget when and how long it has been. So, I did it myself and I will admit to you, this is awful!! I am suffering bouts of crying fits, panic feelings, feelings of wanting to take everything in my bedroom and throw it against the wall and watch it smash, losing patience with family, my beloved 17 yr old son and the man I want to marry next month in June.
I am up at crazy hours like I am now at 5:15am and cannot sleep, but once I do finally fall asleep I cannot drag myself out of bed.
I have these strange sensations in my head as if everything is buzzing (not that zapping feeling others are saying), but a strange buzz. When I drive my car, it is ok. I actually feel sort of normal. It is when I get home, get comfortable and then start feeling sick to my stomach, dizzy, lose balance, get ANGRY :x and cry and want to just scream. :x
Tonight I was on the cell with my fiance (who lives in Fla) and outta nowhere those feelings hit me again all at once! I got snippy at him and lost patience and wanted to hang up the cell and I NEVER do that as I am moving there in 11 days and I love him for over 35 yrs now (we finally found each other again), but now these are serious withdrawals cuz I am behaving like that to HIM of all people! That scares me. He is VERY understanding and patient, but I do not want to take anything out on him!
I hope that these feelings will taper off soon...I do NOT want to go through my beginnings of my life with him in this condition.
I was put on this dreaded Zoloft 10 yrs ago (I forget the strength) and my Rheumatologist claimed it helped Fibromyalgia (which I suffer greatly from). BS!!! It NEVER helped me and as a result now I am suffering BIG time getting off this c**p. I know I will make it, I will prevail...I just don't know when!
I also heard Zoloft makes one gain weight, well, I lost 53lbs in less than a yr being very careful what I eat, but since I stopped the Zoloft and Wellbutron, I am devouring chocolate and other things like crazy. I am trying to remain on my (previously well maintained) diet...hope I can do it.
So, helpmeout7189...you are not alone. I do not have an answer for you, but wanted to tell you my nightmare so you know you're not alone.
I DO FIND ONE THING THAT DOES HELP ME OUT HOWEVER...AND THAT IS LISTENING TO MY FAVORITE MUSIC EVERYTIME I FEEL THE WITHDRAWALS COMING ON...AND I LISTEN TO IT LOUDLY, WHETHER IN HEADPHONES ON, OR THROUGH MY STEREO SURROUND SOUND. IT DOES TAKE THE FEELINGS AWAY AS I AM WRAPPED UP IN MY MUSIC. I HAVE NO CLUE WHY, BUT IT DOES THE JOB.
I am a metal head so metal makes me feel better, and I also love Michael Jackson, so he makes me feel better too. THIS MUSIC THERAPY OF MINE WORKS FOR ME, AND I AM NOT JOKING. It may NOT work for anyone but me, but it does calm some of it down...maybe others may want to try it. But you HAVE TO immerse yourself in music everytime you feel the withdrawals coming on!!!
I wish everyone well and a safe recovery from this horrible, dreaded medication!!!
The ear specialist told me that if I should lose my hearing this sound in my head would be the only sound I would hear. I told him if that happens I would put a gun to my head and kill myself. This is what Zoloft has done to me.
Firstly let me explain my online name. Everyone I know understands I take medication (zoloft) as i figure why hide the fact. The more people understand about mental illness the better. I live in Australia where to be given a name other than your own by the people you know is quite usual, so prozac it is. Haha.
I have been on Zoloft for about 10 years after suffering severe clinical depression (diagnosed) following a bad work accident. This drug probably saved my life!
Zoloft is not for everybody. If it suits you it works wonderfully, if it doesn't you try something else. Zoloft fitted me like a glove which is great, as they say it is the best medication to be on IF it suits you. OK, I have put on weight as others have attested also. This is a small price to pay for my life in my view. It has allowed me to be sociable once more, and to function day to day without many people realising I am on medication. I do not function like I once did and cannot see me returning to the high-powered position of employment I once had, but this is more than likely an effect of my condition than the medication. I have difficulty now being organised and so I set myself smaller targets or number of tasks for the day. This way my day is more effective.
Ten (10) years is a long time to be on medication. Recently I started feeling I am coping much better with day to day life. Time to reduce my dosage. I have been taking 150mg daily for so long I know it will take a while. I know the effects of withdrawal from the occasions when I have finished a packet of tablets and have been unable to organise myself to buy another for a few days. The headaches etc are usually what reminds me to get down the the chemist for a refill. Commencing the weaning process I reduced my dosage from 150mg to 100mg. This did not give me any undue side-effects and so I maintained this dose for about 10 weeks, just over 2 months. About 3 weeks ago I committed to reducing this again to 50mg. This is easy as I just break one tablet in half. I am not particularly worried if it is a little more or a little less than 50mg as long as the multi-day average remains constant.
I would have said I am not having any significant side affects so far, however my wife says i am irritable. I will raise this with my doctor, but I would hope to reduce my medication to zero within another 4-5 weeks.
I hope this helps someone in their decision to start taking Zoloft or in their decision in how they should stop. It is not a life sentence (think of the alternative) but importantly it is absolutely essential to reduce your dependence ONLY under medical supervision and then only by degrees with a long term plan.
Lastly I do not think anyone should be taking this medication without first having a psychiatric consult, and without having ongoing psychiatric help for a suitable amount of time. If you are not sick enough to see a psychiatrist you probably shouldn't be taking these sorts of medications. Good luck to all of you who need assistance.
I am sooooo sorry for what everyone here is experiencing!! I am working through it myself. But I am getting through...I was on 50 mg for 4 months, the last month I started to taper to 25 mg more or less, then less. I went cold turkey two weeks ago. It was horrid.
I was on paxil and wellbutrin years ago for about a year and half while I was going through a difficult time. I had to make 3 attempts, the first 2 were absolute hell!! Needing to nap during day and getting horrid nightmares that the devil was in my home and snakes were on me, I was sooo irritable and fragile, and then the zaps... Holy cow,
I did Zoloft this time, which frankly it worked super well for me in that I stopped thinking suicidal and started coping better- So I have to say, thank God for Zoloft for that!! I got through my difficult episode and wanted to get off Zoloft.
Withdrawal from Zoloft for me is far, far easier than my Paxil/Welbutrin horror. However, that said, I have the zaps, weird REMs, tearyness, horrible anger feelings. Some times I just have to go lie down because I am so dizzy. But withdrawal from Zoloft unlike before, I too want to smash things throught the wall!! I want to hit myself on cabinet doors or drawers. I want to suddenly break things. I have to constantly resist weird anger bouts. I dreamt of strangling a child recently! It was a dream, and the kid in reallife was behaving poorly, but really??? WTF It's awful. And I too went from it being uncomfortable physically at first, then scary horrible after 7-10 days where the nausea, zaps went away ever so slightly, but I became a terrible terrible angry person in a flash. Mostly I hid it, and avoided people. But my poor boyfriend, ugh, I love him and I would become crazy difficult! If he managed to distract me by saying I needed to shower, dress and meet so and so for dinner in 30 minutes, I could squash it and go out and be fine. But if he didn't distract me, I swear I could find hours of complaints and worries and pick fights.... And I am nooooottttt that way!!!! I hated it, I was crying all the time, And wanting to hit people, smash things all the time. I wondered if I needed to go back on again.
(The upside to my anger episode was, I normally hate conflict and avoid any confrontation at all costs - but, in one spontaneous angry spell, I poignantly told a friend to basically "f"-off after years of her games. And that actually felt awesome! And long overdue.)
So I am now 14 days into it AND IT IS FINALLY GETTING BETTER!!!! I am not as wacky, and the zaps are subsiding, and no tears today. Here are my observations and what I think seems to make withdrawal get better for me or helps in a pinch.
I am detoxing.
1, Eating only healthy, mostly greens, lots of ginger and beet and leafy green - all good detoxers.
2, Drinking tons of water, living on ginger or detox tea.
3. I take several quick showers a day and end them COLD water to help my skin redden and open blood vessels to help detox process. The showers help when you feel nauseous, tired, irritable, cranky, angry, dumb, dull, out of touch with reality.
4. Walk!. The more I walk, the better the day goes and less zaps. I get super zappy at end of day for some reason. So I do a bit of a forced march and just go!! Also, helps my anger spews and dizzyness.
5. A quick nap helps dizzyness or soothe my soul when I am angry.
6, I know its cheating...but I take a tiny bit of ambien at night to let me get real sleep. I know that's not very detoxy but your body needs to sleep.
7. I try to get nature everyday, for some reason tv and loud noises really set me off. (Though I will try to play more music like other blogger suggested.)
So basically, GREENS, WATER, COLD SHOWERS, POWER WALKS. (And avoid annoying people if you can, you are just too fragile to deal with them, not these few weeks. Or maybe go blow up a friendship you needed to cut loose of anyhow... ;-)
Keep pushing on! You'll get through it!
I'm 44 and living in Florida now and never thought i'd have to go through this again, but hey, life's a beach!.
when i did go off the zoloft in late 2004, i had brain zaps and major headaches. i was only on it for 9 months. but i messed up my brain severely by taking ecstacy which I should have never touched, but now i'm surffering the consequences. live and learn i guess, right? well I learned big time.
the poster above talked about music therapy, and i ahve to agree as it helps me when in get in a funk. of course if it gets to be too much i just pop a klonopin which eases my anxiety.
my anxiety symptoms manifest as headaches, weakness, nuymbness in my arms and legs and chest pain. also when i eat i have to catch my breath many times..it's the anxiety from what i've learned, and my brother has it too.
with all that has been said, it's a tough road but know this can NOT kill you. it's just very uncomfortable and a b***h to deal with. i don't even have the ability to take any pain meds cuz my brain is so messed up. when i was in the hospital they put me on morphine and the pain got worse..they put me on demerol and i was about to kill myself as the pain was unbarable. they had no clue what was going on and neither did it, but at least now i know.
one more things. my anxiety and PTSD was so bad, i was UNABLE TO TALK FOR A YEAR due to symptoms that would be brought on. imagine not being able to talk...it was a very lonely time for me, but I have to say for some, zoloft is a life saver, and for me, i'm grateful for it.
Life may not be what we expect, but while we're here we might as well try to enjoy the right as much as possible and relish in the little things in life, like friends, family, music, birds, tress, and every single thing around us... our memories too.
Have faith, keep happy thoughts, visualize yourself getting better and ask the universe or whatever God you believe in to help you through this.
YOU WILL GET BETTER, AND THIS TOO SHALL PASS..... :)