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Oh yes, Doubled69- I can CERTAINLY relate to these symptoms of weed withdrawal!
I honestly feel your pain.
Let me guess. You are suffering with a haunted head & heart, right now- regrets from the past playing in your heart & wrongs people have committed playing in your head? Feel like cutting friends off? Feeling low, unmotivated & generally like poop from a dog whose eaten a 3 bean chilli?
You have a choice. You can choose to relapse & then go through it all again.
Or you can choose to fight it out & try and deal with one thing at a time.
I recently had a bit of a 'break-down'- I am withdrawing after a long-term, regular habit and it's bloody hard! My 1st couple of days of cold-turkey were a bit horrible- I was tired, unmotivated & my brain refused to work normally. However, I wasn't depressed. By day 3, I was fine. That was a good day- I was upbeat, motivated & starting to feel my energy rise.
Then came the flat moments that slid in to a depression. The first one lasted a couple of days. In those couple days, I had to keep on automatic- keep normal day-to-day things ticking over. The hardest bit to deal with was the pain and loss of appertite. I had horrible, bone-crunching pains in my back and wrists, that made normal tasks very difficult & time consuming. I kept getting repetative thoughts & spurts of anger ("Why me..?")- one of those evenings, I sat & planned my funeral, even though I would never consider suicide at this point in my life. I wasn't going to kill myself & I wasn't paranoid that I would die- it simply felt comfortable to plan the end of my life. I've recently lost an old school friend, at a very young age (36), and in my depression, I was cursing her for getting an early bow out of this world.
Even in my normal head state- I don't like the state of this world. I like some aspects of it, but there is a lot that disappoints & disgusts me. However, in my depressive state, I found myself crying at everything. A few newspaper reports really upset me & one of them is still hard to get out my head (that psycho Canadian cannibal killer who harmed animals). That story looped in my head for the whole two days of depressive state!
Yet...it all changes. The low moments don't last forever.
Your brain chemicals- and the production of these chemicals & how they are used in your brain & body- is having to re-adjust. The crying- the depression & anxiety, insomnia and loss of appertite is due to these factors.
Give it time and you will start to have more up days than down after a few weeks.
Best of Luck.
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