Has anyone experienced Depo- Provera Withdrawals???

I took the shot on and off for 18 years mostly on. I personally loved the shot for 10 plus years no side effects to think of except a little weight gain but was fine with that because I was very skinny. I never had a period while on it, which was awesome but the weight kept coming and I have gained 90 pounds so far. My major side effects started 10 years ago, but never made the connection to depo being the cause. I stopped 3 years ago to let my body rest and after I got my next shot 6 months later everything hit me with a vengeance. I just recently turned 40 and I thought I was going into early menopause. I am off the shot 5 weeks and suffered a severe steroid withdrawal last week I was stuck laying in bed for 6 days with extreme fatigue, severe depression, very scary I wanted to end it all, body aches, night sweats, slept for 14 hours at a time, body acne, smelly discharge, no appetite and extreme anxiety. I feel a little better but still scared it might all return I do not have the strength to fight it. This shot is a poison and evil because it has a way of masking itself and leads you to believe its not the cause to all your symptoms. My bff said not having a period is toxic to your body and can destroy your health and well being permanently!!! Is this true???  Please say a prayer for me I really need some!!! Has anyone else experienced withdrawal like I have? How long before your body felt normal again? Does getting your period back make all the discomfort go away?   Thanks for reading and God Bless.