I suffer from severe anxiety and am super anxious and embarrassed about this so I just need advice to steady my mind.

My boyfriend and I fooled around the other day and today. When I say fooled around, I mean that he fingered me, I jacked him off and whatever. He then wanted to try and stick his penis into my anus. I said okay and we tried it out. We didn't use any condoms even though I know we should. Also, I am not using contraception at the moment.

So today was a bit different. We tried anal again but he came sooner than expected. Except he pulled out just beforehand and we dealt with it (I'm a bit of a p***y and have trouble feeling comfortable with semen -.-). He cleaned up and then he fingered me. We did that for a bit, then cuddle and we were back to trying it again. And the same thing happened. After I helped him clean up, we noticed that time, it went a little further afield. There were a few splashes on my bed. I then remembered that I slid off my bed to grab tissues without anything, making me wonder if I had rubbed over the splashes. I didn't see any smudges so I put that thought to the back of my mind. 

What's bothering me now is my boyfriend has one of those penis' that points up when erected I'm not actually sure if that's normal as he is my first boyfriend) and it kept touching that part between my vaginal opening and my anus.

The poor guy is freaking out, thinking I'm pregnant and blaming himself. I'm scared myself but we can barely talk about this rationally as he's just terrified. 

I've gone through the scenario and thought that there is no way I could be pregnant but so many people have said that sperm can even travel even from the upper thigh. So I'm now freaking out myself.

I'm also terrified about talking to my mum because she told me to use protection in all situations and I know this time I messed up. And also with my high anxiety, I don't know who to turn to without feeling like I'm going into overdrive.

I just need someone to tell me what the risk is baring in mind my situation.

Also, I finished my period just over a week ago and my app says today is my ovulation day which is making me even more scared. 

Just to clarify, he did not put his penis in my vaginal opening. He only put it in my anus and kept accidentally touching that part between the two.

 

Thank you so much to those who help me. I am in desperate need of it x