Will my vigina get tighter if I have no more sex ?

Hi there! I am from a country and culture where girls before marriege can NOT have sex! I live by myself for over 5 years. A few month a go I met this guy and we are so in love. For over this year even I was far from my family I never ever had sex before. He is from totally different culture and country. My family found me a men to marry me, if I tell them I lost my virginity it will end up loosing my family also. I don't have money to do any surgeries and I have no one to trust to share it with. He wants too marry me but he needs some time now. We had sex 4 time I was bleeding for 2 days and after that we waited for 2 days and then we had 2-3 times. After the last sex it hurt so much.Was still a little blood but not like first time. Please I do need help I think I am already regreting for what I have done with him. I feel guilty and embarrassed so much in from og God. Will it get tighter if I have no more sex ? . Will 4 times sex count. How can I make it tight with no surger. We all make mistakes and all get smarter by doing them. Please do not judge me I feel so much guilty for what I have done already that I want to die.