Lonely, tearful, sad, and despondent. Been weaning off Escitalopram because of weight gain and " manic highs" then desperate loss. Doc gave me plan for withdrawal from 20 mg but it was the " miss a day" type of plan which did not seem logical, so I have been tapering down gradually eg to 15 mg for 2 weeks, then 10mg for 2 weeks, then 5 mg for 2 weeks. Felt great so carried on reducing to 2.5mg, for 2 weeks, and still felt fine. I rang doc to ask if LIQUID Escitalopram was available so I could reduce even further. He asked what strength I was finally down to and when I said 2.5mg, he said " oh that's negligible dose, so stop altogether now". So I did , that was 2 weeks ago and now I just want to die. Can't stop crying, and developed this stupid cough, spasms keeping me from falling asleep. So sad and afraid -- is this the full blown depression coming back again?? Or just the withdrawal symptoms?? I was doing ok until the sudden jump down from 2.5mg to NOTHING ! Taking lots of supplements, bit b,d, garlic, ginger, and just got onto St.Johns Wort, but feel no better. Can't cope with this.