Feeling depressed after stopping the birth control pills?

You are not the only one with ROCD. Everybody in this forum has it LOL you are not alone. When I finallt found this forum I wasn't jumping for joy that my relationship wasn't the problem! But for other who don't know it's there anxiety/OCD they will probably end up ruining every relationship they have! My symptoms used to be anxiety, depression (sleep in until 1 I felt like there was this huge elephant sitting on my chest), OCD thoughts that would keep rotating in my mind, irrational thoughts, neck pains, loss of appetite, hot flashes. Yeah it was not fun the first few months. But I went to therapy and tried to sort everything out. I kinda have to stop going though cause I feel like I might be using it as a comfort blanket, but it's scary to go out into this world and live normally again when you've basically been beaten down by your own self. It's not the relationship that's the problem (or any other thoughts your having) it's you! It's your hormones! Your anxiety! Your OCD issues

I just find it extremely odd that I’ve been feeling this way for so long. I got of the pill on May but In June is when I started to feel really weird about my relationship. I would just cry to him and tell him kissing him didn’t feel right or that I didn’t know who he was RANDOMLY. Now I think I just view him in a complete different light. Some days are good but most are bad and these thoughts take over my mind. I find myself being very mean and bossy and not very clingy or attached anymore. I still love him I just don’t feel “in love” anymore. It completely stinks and I truly hope it’s the hormones considering it’s been about 9 months off and I actually noticed I started to feel differently about him about 2 weeks after going on the pill. It’s like I woke up one morning and fell out of love and never fell back in love and it was all for no reason and so random. There is no reason I should feel this way because he is truly amazing but I often even feel as if I’m not attracted to go anymore and that I need to go out and live my life because I’m still young and haven’t experienced much. It’s really terrible because I used to picture us spending forever together. The only thing that keeps me thinking positive and helps me get through it is that I am 20 years old and if I really didn’t want to be with him it would be easy for me to just leave him because when you don’t want a relationship anymore it’s usually okay to walk away, but I can’t.

Its hard to tell :( i know your frustrated and i would be too after 9 months! Try talking to him about it? Maybe try to stop talking for a bit (i highly doubt that will help though because your relationship is not the problem). I am 20 years old too and thats why i try not to stress about this too much because God will guide us on the right path and if this relationship is going to end then it will, but not by you forcing it to end with these hormones! That's how i look at it. But do you ever feel really good? Cause i usually feel SO good a 2 weeks before my period and during my period and i feel so inlove

yeah I don’t think ending it with fix the problem. Just thinking about that makes me sick to my stomach. Yes I do feel very good sometimes but never like I did before all of this. But yes! Sometimes I do feel really great with him.

I just had a period and it was really weird because I had no cramps and I didn’t even feel like it wasn’t coming. Usually, I’ll feel like I’m getting it a week before it even comes.

Thats how you know your still going through this hormonal change! Honestly I am curious what my hormones are like now like i actually want to get a natural test of them cause maybe i could speed up this process.. i just don't know where to go ? And for anxiety + relationships read this article it made me feel so much better ***this post is edited by moderator *** *** posting of web addresses is not allowed*** Please read our Terms of Use I put spaces in-between the link because this forum will delete it if i don't

I say that too Nikki, i wouldn't wish it on my own enemy. This experience is so saddening and scary - i feel like im dying :(

Chronic neck pain must be a nightmare for you Nikki im sorry to hear that :(

I really regret that day I took that pill!

If i can do it, so can you! Yeah somedays you just feel like you have to just do things to get through it, and u cant wait to go back to bed and thats how its going to be! but then you can look back and realize how strong you are

Thanks Nikki! I'm going to see a Naturopathic doctor probably this week and a therapist too so i can seek extra help getting through this...

That's how i am for the past 4 weeks. I just wanna be at in bed all day. I took a leave from work because I just can't seem to function like i used to. Sometimes I look at myself and get sad because its so far from who i used to be.

But you're right.. to be strong is the only option right now.

Does a naturopathic doctor tell you your hormone balance ? And yes I quit my job too! Haven't gone back since, my therapist told me to take a break

I read from this forum and on others that they went to a Naturopathic Doctor and it helped with their symptoms. I'm gonna try that approach in hoping it will do the same for me.

It weird for me though because I just finished my period 4 days ago and im still feeling so bad. I guess its really different on every woman.. i heard for some the worst days are the days leading up to their period.

yeah im a week from finishing my period and i still feel this lingering bad feeling like im just not myself.. i read somewhere that people feel there worst AFTER. I feel my best a week before/during my period

Here is another success post I found on another forum. This chick is EVERYTHING I have felt and thought! (probably you guys too) and i followed her success story through the pages .. so here is words of encouragement

"Hi ladies! I haven't been on this board in ages -- I can't even remember the last time. Which is remarkable in and of itself being that I pretty much lived on this board for well over a year post-bcp. I'm almost 2.5 years off the pill now and I am feeling so much better! Anyway, I just wanted to share some happy news -- I am engaged! To the same guy who stuck with me through this post-pill nightmare and who listened to me talk to him about my ROCD on a daily basis for over a year when I first quit. I loved him then and I love him now just like I've always loved him. Always. He is my everything. So I just wanted to give you ladies some encouragement -- it gets better! My brain honestly used to be 24/7 chaos of (untrue) thoughts. It was a nightmare. I could never relax because I was bombarded by thoughts even waking moment. My mind negatively spun every single moment of my life for so long. I pretty much believed the ROCD for well over a year. I came on these boards and spoke with other women going through similiar stuff and I did research and listened to relaxation tapes and tried anything and everything but I could never find that reassurance. But I held on. I tried to accept that this was the way it was going to be indefinitely but that it would pass. My mind wanted to bolt constantly, and I came close on numerous occassions, but I stayed strong. And thank god I did. Because it did pass. I can't say when exactly. I didn't notice the change right away. My mind just slowly but surely started quieting back down again. And once it did, my mind was able to kind of "retrain" itself against things that used to trigger me. I remember quotes or love stories or movies or tv shows used to trigger me into a downward spiral. I can now watch these shows without the thoughts. But more importantly, I forget I even had the thoughts in the first place. My mind has just moved on. My hormones still aren't perfect and I have some lingering issues like extreme irritability and spotting before periods. But the nightmare is over and has been for a while now. And it will be for you ladies too, I swear. Here's the thing -- You wouldn't be here if this wasn't bcp-related. You wouldn't have found your way to this board because you wouldn't have questioned your ROCD thoughts. If those thoughts were true, the first time you had them, you would have left your relationship. You wouldn't have googled why this was happening to you. That googling that lead you here -- that was your gut telling you that something with these thoughts wasn't right. Hold onto that and remember that this WILL pass. And also remember that it's not a coincidence that we have all experienced this post-bcp. People from all over the world, of all ages and backgrounds. The common factor is birth control. For whatever reason, we are super sensitive to it. My naturopath I used to see equated it to a 1% reaction. Aren't we lucky? Haha. But HANG IN THERE and DON'T GIVE UP. Seriously. Read my old posts. They are night and day to how I am now. If I can heal, anyone can! And you will. And every day that passes is another day closer to that healing. Stay strong! You're all stronger than you know :) xoxoxoxox: -

Thank you immensely for this! Does she have other posts as well ??

oh yes it goes from bad to getting better to good then to this! Type on google "IBelieveInUs Effects of stopping birth control (part 4)" a link to women health should pop up and then if you scroll through the forum you will find her name, click on it and then click messages and you can see a whole timeline! LOL I love her even though i don't know her! It is just an incredible story and gives me so much hope