Okay so it is obvious that you have strong feelings for the girl whom you are very close with, but yet you say you love men. Usually at a young age(4-10) kids start to experience likings towards the different sex, maybe you got yours a little later, i don't know.
It's up to you to know for sure if you are gay or not, we here cant tell you that for sure, but if you do make up your mind and just come to the conclusion that you are indeed a lesbian...then you'll need to learn to be comfortable with that, because that's who you are.
One of my friends found out that she liked girls in the 6th grade....ever since then she's been real comfortable with herself and her liking towards women. She can care less if people look at her weird...she knows who she is, not them. But before she knew that she liked girls more than boys she had sex with both a girl and a boy at different times...she came to the conclusion that she liked girls way more than boys.
So don't stress...if people do not accept you for who you are then that's their problem...not yours. As long as you know your a good person then everything is alright.
Goodluck & Godbless<3
ur problem if their is any is all about choice ( your choice )
listen being lesbian or straight or gay or bisexual is life choice and the most important one to b honest
ur sexual life is just ur own not for any one els , like i said it is choise issue and by all means u have to stick to ur choice , i think i understand what u being trough cause if my thoughts are right u and i share the same background (and iam lesbian and proud to say it ) yes not alot of ppl know , but i have active sexual life and this is how i like it
hope u are wise and choose good choice and the right thing for u :)
must be your age because theres lots of young girls that have some kind of sexual experience with other girls your hormones are raging .and yes u enjoyed it its not u thats confused its your hormones thats confused and its normal part of growing up.theres lots of young girls that have the same thing happen to them and most end up being straight when there older ...Think about it do u really believe your friend was a sleep for two hour noway.I would bet she going through the same thing .