Am I lesbian bisexual bi curious or straight?

Hello I am a Gil who turned 12 two months ago but I have been slightly worried since I was 10 though.  when I was five two of my friends convinced me to do something I  forget how but I was 5 and thought sex was interesting not knowing otherwise. But through ages about 7-9  I would fantasize about a lot about me as an adult woman ( I was obsessed in these fantasies about making sure I was perfect nice figure, big boobs, ect.) doing things with and attractive male. Also when I was 8 my cousin who is also 8 got me watching porn straight    I forget what I was turned on by though so Ya. Then when I was nine I looked at it again alone (I hate myself for these things) and I saw that there was one that had two girls and I knew I would like it so I watched about one minute of it. Then at eleven I saw some anime thing with to girl and I was aroused and wanted to see there bodies because it would arouse me and I knew it. At ten me and that same cousin would sometimes make sour Barbies lesbians always her idea (she is super straight ) and sometimes I would get turned on. Still though when my babies did things straight I think I was aroused but I can't remember. Also now for some reason I think I liked her threat five year old friend but at the same time I'm like I think I would remember that so ya. I always think I have crushes on girls when I don't think I do at the same time and this only started when I started worrying. Ages 3-11 always liked guys. Crushes sometimes a little to much. When I was 8 I had a dream I did stuff with a lot of different guys and liked it. I like the look of abs but I am not turned on by them and I always look at there I'm nipples I know that's weird but ya. I usually don't like fall in love with famous guys though. I don't like the look of a guys part but if I look long enough I get um wet. I have a boyfriend right now and want to kiss him and "stuff" but those thoughts just make me extremely happy and I like tem but I'm not turned on. I really like him and when I thought he was goiNg to break up with me I got sad. Once a boy at a store about 16 helped me and I got all nervous and hot and he was nice looking but I don't know what thinking a guy is hot feels like sooo. I get nervous when a guy looks at my face and I feel likes something wronge with my hair face or body.  Um iI do look at girls boobs and butt but ya. When I was visiting my dad in Chicago a few months ago I looked at this 10 yr olds boobies and I also thought was pretty but then all the sudden I was what if I like her. And whenever a younger girl has boobs I look and am like what. Also I have has like  a dream or two about girls but I'm pretty sure that's normal. Sometimes when I'm sad I want my bf to come and snuggle me and I love talking to hima be him. I'm tuned on by a naked woman. If I am forgetting anything ill say it in comments and I'm not homophobic I don't think I'm sooo confused. I'm Christian and if I am bi or lesbian sadly I'm afraid I may hurt my self. I am currently seeing a counsler. pleas help me and have a good day .