I'm in so much pain I can't stand it.  I had rather deal with the hemorrhoids than deal with this.  I do everything they say to do.  Sitz baths and all. No wiping but sitz bath.  The smell is like something dead back there.  I take Percocet and valium for pain but nothing is helping.  I think I'd rather be dead at this point.  I'm writing this thru tears because I just can't handle this pain. Carterized the ones on the outside and stitched the inside ones.  My first bm was in the bathtub which I passed out.  My husband was there with me so I'm glad about that but I don't know how much longer I can take this.