My hemorrhoidectomy story

Hello. I have read a lot of stories recently about people's hemorrhoidectomy procedures and healing experiences. I wanted to tell mine a bit, because quite frankly I'm amazed at how tame mine has been in terms of pain and complications. I'm a 23 year old female, never had children, and have had two internals for a long time. I was lucky to experience no pain with them, but I did have to look at the Prolapsed hem every day. Even though I experienced no pain, no bleeding, and no discomfort, it ruled my life. My anxiety kept me focused on it, and I felt broken, gross and I couldn't look at my backside without getting depressed. Creams, natural remedies and diet changes did nothing to help my problem. It never got worse, but it never got better. I finally had an appointment with the general surgeon, and he easily performed banding on my two internals. The first two days was uncomfortable, I felt the pressure all the time and couldn't sit at all. Two days after the procedure, during a BM, I felt a pop and immediately the pressure I felt from the band was gone. The Prolapsed hem that had been pulled up inside by the band now protruded again. It was big, Swollen, and very painful. I had to wait all weekend until the Dr opened. I frantically called the surgeon the following Monday, worried that my band had come off prematurely. They brought me in immediately. My Dr had told me that the band had come off properly and there was no hem. Just swelling. I had a panic attack and asked him if he was looking at the same anus as I was. He was going to Send me home and check back in five weeks. I insisted he resolve my problem right then and there because I couldn't have it control me anymore. He offered another banding, but because of the swelling, the hem would be positioned outside of the anus and I would have to deal with it being visible as it died off. I refused. He then offered to surgically remove it. I agreed swiftly. So I hopped up on the OT and he gave me local anesthesia. Within 10 mins I was cut and stitched up, and on my way with pain med and stool softeners. I could see the incision a couple centimeters in length from the opening of my anus and up my crack a bit. The pain I experienced after the anesthesia wore off was excruciating. I couldn't move, I was constantly bleeding, and I could feel the ache all the way up my tailbone. I managed a Sitz bath that night to ease a bit of the pain and only took a few pain meds. The bleeding had eased up a bit by the time I went to bed. I did not have a BM til two days after the procedure. I was so nervous about it, I think that's why it took that long. The pain wasn't unbearable, and I was able to get through it without much bleeding. It was easy to clean up. By day 4 i was only taking one pain med in the morning, just in case. By this time I was back at work easily walking and moving and sitting. I had some area bruising that made my whole anus purple. By day 5 the pain was mostly gone, BM were easy, and I didn't bleed much after them anymore. I had been doing two Sitz baths a day for the comfort and to promote healing. It is now 11 days after surgery, and bruising is all gone. BM is a breeze. I have no swelling, no pain whatsoever. The only thing I am now worried about, is my wound. It seems to be healing nicely, but with one problem, and I've been searching for answers. I'll try and describe it as best as I can. Immediately after procedure and for the first week, I could not see stitches. Now, while inspecting the wound two days ago, I noticed I could see the wound opening a bit, and I could see every stitch. It's like they have not been very successful holding the wound together. I'm afraid this means when the stitches desolve and the wound continues to heal, it won't heal closed up completely. Rather, it will heal as a cleft, so to speak. I have been a tiny bit careless at work, and I have lifted some boxes. I also haven't been extremely careful with how I sit because I don't feel pain. But I'm worried I've made my healing more complicated. Has anyone else experienced this? I just, can't put it out of my mind because of the anxiety. I know I should just be patient and wait a bit longer to see how we progress, but it's hard to not worry. If anyone has any similar experience and success afterwards, please share to ease my mind. Otherwise, this story I wanted to share, because as much as the first few days sucked, it wasn't a nightmare. I have my followup appointment in about three weeks. So I will go from there!