Feeling depressed after stopping the birth control pills?

Guest over a year ago

It’s nice to meet you too. I’m sorry your going through this! How many months are you off?

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Guest over a year ago

Hey Alicia- mine is so extreme sometimes that I freak out to everything i feel. For example just now im on google looking for signs and symptoms of my tooth abcess spreading to my brain or heart since im not gonna see my dentist til saturday... Im scared that the infection might spread. I know I shouldn't be googling but i cant help it :(

Every single thing i feel - i relate it to something that will kill me. And the worst is... i cant stop.

-Martha

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Guest over a year ago

I’ve dealt with all of this on top of having relationship OCD which has most definitely been the hardest. I’m so sorry, the depression and anxiety makes you feel so down about everything. Good luck

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Guest over a year ago

Hi Martha - I use to google everything too, then I just kept telling myself google isn't a definite answer, rather mostly people's opinions. I know how you feel though, I have the same issue, and now feel like googling Health OCD lol

- Alicia

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Guest over a year ago

Thank you. May I ask - have you recovered at all?

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Guest over a year ago

nope, it’s been 9 months and I have yet to recover. I wonder if I ever will and it completely sucks. I feel like the only way to recover is leave my fiancé because I feel like he’s the reason I’m depressed but it just makes no sense because he used to make me so happy before all of this. I don’t think that would solve anything I think it would make everything worse I just feel like I need to and it stinks!

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Guest over a year ago

Hi Alicia how are you today? Martha here.

I know google makes me more anxious but at the same time google made me find this forum as well. I always tell myself that I have to be proactive about things that I feel but at the same time googling makes me paranoid so its all confusing haha.

Sometimes I look back and i really don't know how I survived the past 3 months of feeling this way.. it's so tiring. i pray a lot and meditate a lot too. I feel like what helped me most is praying to God

It makes me so mad that a small pill can do this horrible effect on our physical and mental state.

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Guest over a year ago

Hi martha here :) i'm sorry to hear it's been 9 months and you still get ROCD.. i feel your struggle.

What are your improvements though? From your month 1 to month 9.. what are the things that you feel like you have improved on when it comes to the physical and mental symptoms? Talking about our improvements sometimes helps us see that eventhough it has been soooo long we will get better. This is hard for me to do to but sometimes i really try my hardest to see the light at the end of our dark tunnel.

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Guest over a year ago

Hi Martha! It was a bit better of a day than yesterday. I never say I have a good day now because good would be me being back to my self! Though I was very fatigued today and still have the other depression symptoms, I had no crying spells so that was a relief. How are you today?

I always say I never knew I was strong. The first three months were the worse I have no idea how I came out of that. Praying and meditating is a great idea, I’ve done so as well.

I can’t believe this is from a little birth control pill either. I had absolutely no idea this could happen, and wasn’t told anything about it.

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Guest over a year ago

Hello Martha! Yes, I notice an extreme difference from then to now. I was much more anxious 8 months ago! When this first happened I remember shaking, feeling nauseous, severe anxiety not being able to eat and only wanting to sleep for about a week after being off the pill for a month. I slowly got better after this in the aspect of anxiety. Then I started to feel depressed and went through that stage. I was very irritable (still am now) and super mean to my partner. hmmmm I had some numbness right above my knee cap which I believe comes and goes. Low sex drive, negative thoughts, weird OCD thoughts about my relationship, etc. anything and everything that could have possibly been wrong was wrong. I’ve improved significantly but the thoughts are still here about my relationship and I find it really hard to just sit and wonder if i will ever be in love with him again or if I will ever be the same.

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Guest over a year ago

Good to hear today is better for you Alicia :) i know - im scared to feel im good because then if i have a setback it will feel horrible. Are you working atm? I also get days where I feel drowsy and tired for no reason even though i stay home all day coz i took a leave from work.

We are all strong women being able to handle all this. The "im dying inside out" feeling if you know what i mean.. i wouldnt wish this on anybody

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Guest over a year ago

Hey Martha here- What are the things you did to improve your symptoms? Im only on my 3rd month off so right now I am most bothered by the physical anxiety..

When did the ROCD start? Ive read that some other girls who experience ROCD went to therapy to help them deal with it. I know it feels real to you, the way you feel about your husband. It must be difficult seeing him everyday and not feeling the love. Don't believe it. It's your hormones tricking your mind into things that is not real. If it helps reminisce the old times you share with him.. look at old photos..

Message me here anytime if you've been feeling bad - talk about it.. it helps also to share what you feel.

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Guest over a year ago

The ROCD actually started while on the pill. I was only on it for a short time but very randomly I got this sudden thought about not loving him. Ever since then it’s been up and down. I was also very emotional and irritable on the pill and that’s why I cane off. I thought it would help but about a month later is when the anxiety started. Honestly time is the best healer. I did improve my diet slightly but other than that I haven’t been to the doctors because I’m afraid that they are going to tell me I’m fine also, I don’t want to be put on medication because I told myself I am never putting anything in my body ever again.

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Guest over a year ago

I am working and a full time student at a university. I also feel drowsy very often. I can't remember a day I had energy. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy, as they say.

Does anyone else have the tiredness feeling? I get a full nights most nights and am still tired. So strange.

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Guest over a year ago

I know eversince all these happened I'm scared to take medication (pharmaceutical drugs to be exact) that's why i resorted to acupuncture and naturopathy...

Hang in there, we will go through all of these together. I know 9 months is a long time for you to be feeling that way towards your husband but I believe that soon and slowly you will get your feelings back.

I just hope that there will be more information for women about oral contraceptives!! It's frustrating how doctors give pills like candy without warning.

-Martha

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