hello! I want to start off by saying if you are reading this you are NOT alone! Being young I wanted to start birth control to prevent me from the "obvious" things a 18 year old girl would not want. I've had a boyfriend for almost 3 years and started birth control in March. From the first week when it started to kick I knew I started to feel different. I started to almost feel like I lost my feelings for my boyfriend. Disclaimer! I know I am young and people say "you don't know what it's like to be In love" BUT I promise I do. Anyway, this was very odd to me because we have had a perfect relationship for years. I decided to wait it out but nothing ever got better. I was extremely emotional all the time, ate SO MUCH, and was just overall not happy anymore. I thought stopping the pill would be the best option for me so that's what I did. The first month of coming off the pill was great. I felt fine and almost like I was going back to normal. UNTIL, I got my first period. After getting my first period I went into about a week long depression. I couldn't eat, just wanted to sleep and had no motivation to do anything! I think most of this was caused because I completely felt like I had to break up with my boyfriend. Thousands of unwanted thoughts were going through my head for days! I felt like I didn't want this relationship anymore, that I had no future with him, when we hangout it's going to be boring. I even started to think he wasn't attractive anymore! All of these unwanted thoughts are caused my anxiety and soon began to realize that. Coming off birth control has given me anxiety and depression. I am not who I used to be. My relationship is the biggest thing that was effected yet, I have other side effects. I don't enjoy doing things I used to and I don't really get excited about much anymore. It's been about 3 months since coming off the pill and I'm about to get my third period off of it. I'm not better yet but definitely better than what I was. It's hard to describe how I feel towards my boyfriend. It's almost like I don't know him anymore and I think that's because of the lack of connection. I feel like I fell out of love and that breaks my heart but that's how I describe it. It's almost like everything I knew and had before this is blurred and I'm completely different now. I heard it takes about 6 months to feel better for most women and they see it as a new way to fall in love again so I hope that happens for me, as well as you if you are reading this. I think we will all get better in time. It's a long process and we just have to wait.