I really would appreciate any help with this please.

When I was 19 I was in bed with a girl and had a rock hard erection but the thing is, I was also desperate to go to the toilet for a number 2, I was struggling and holding gas in and desperatley wanting the feeling of wanting to pooh to go away.

I had a good erection whislt holding it all in.

The problem is, when she actually went to the bathroom (this before we had had sex), I looked at my erection and I felt a nudge feeling in my penis and it went soft in an isntant, I was actually watching it go down to flacccid and couldnt stop it.

My penis then tried to recover and it went back to 50% hard and I have been like this ever since.

At least 5 years later, I was driving to a job interview and I was desperate for a pee, I was literally bursting, I mean in agony with stomach cramps, I  finally found a place to stop and go.

Now the issue I have - that evening driving home, I got a massive erection again, just like it was before, I thought I was cured, I did masturbate because of the intense feeling.

Again, after this my erection problem started again, 50% hardness with little sensitivty and lack of desire.

Surely It cannot be physical as I got the hard erection again.

I have been tested for all known problems and all clear.

This problem has now been going on for 20 years.

 

Should I just hold back from peeing until the pain is unbearable so I can get an erection, I mnean can i damage the brain or signals to the penis, what has caused this?

 

Thanks.