Im scared because my intrusive rocd thoughts began a month before stopping the pill... What if this isnt pill related. I have been going through this for the past 7 months, almost 8... I dont know when this will end. I feel so bad for not feeling in love with my boyfriend. When he talks silly or says i love you I always get that guilty feeling. I honestly just wish to be HAPPY with HIM. I want my mind to be at peace, and stop over analyzing everything. I am scared to live with him with that condition.I hope it goes away soon :(
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I’m sorry, I don’t know why we feel like this. My best advice would be to just stick it out. There is a reason you have been for so long. I’ve been off the pill for almost a year and I still have the ROCD thought every day although they occur much less. It’s weird because I don’t think I will EVER be able to feel the way I used to. Even if I start to feel “inlove” again I don’t think it will be the same as the first time. And I also don’t know how I’m supposed to just forget all of this but I’m trying to manage.
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Hey everyone. Ive been feelin a lot better recently although my period turned up today unexpected (4 days early). Didnt have any symptoms leadin up to it. I def find im more anxious when my husband an i work different shifts an dont see each other as much. Thats when the rocd is worst. I feel loads better when im with him so i take comfort from that. Hope everyone is coping better
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Im 17 months off :-/ it has been a long an very hard struggle. I hope im on the mend now but i still have some very anxious days. Wish id never taken the pill in first place
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Hey! I'm in my 7 month and am feeling better? But there's still this obvious feeling of not feeling like myself. I don't "feel alive" if you know what I mean? Does anyone else feel like that? And if so, do you know if that's a part of the depression?
I've literally been through it all except for ROCD. I had Health OCD instead (and am still battling that as well). For example, I stopped drinking coffee because it had caffeine and I was feeling anxious so I thought it might be helpful, but even though I don't have physical anxiety anymore (sometimes I still have anxiety in other ways) I'm like scared to drink coffee which is silly! I don't know how to tell myself that it's okay now, it's like my guard is always up. I won't even take medicine for a cold because I'm scared of medicine after having this experience with the pill. I literally had the worst cold for two weeks and suffered badly because I was that scared to even take a sip of cough medicine.
I've literally been through it all except for ROCD. I had Health OCD instead (and am still battling that as well). For example, I stopped drinking coffee because it had caffeine and I was feeling anxious so I thought it might be helpful, but even though I don't have physical anxiety anymore (sometimes I still have anxiety in other ways) I'm like scared to drink coffee which is silly! I don't know how to tell myself that it's okay now, it's like my guard is always up. I won't even take medicine for a cold because I'm scared of medicine after having this experience with the pill. I literally had the worst cold for two weeks and suffered badly because I was that scared to even take a sip of cough medicine.
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I’ve always dreamt about being a mommy. It’s the one thing that I just can’t wait to do. I’m still in college and not financially stable to support a child yet but the thought of not wanting to get pregnant keeps happening. I’ve dealt with so much this last year post Bcp that I never want to feel as bad as I did in the beginning again. I’ve had ROCD since the start of this and the thought of me having it even after pregnancy is seriously crazy. I’ve gotten much better this past year but it definitely has yet to depleate. I have good days and bad ones to and I’m just waiting for the day this is completely over. I wouldn’t want it to start up again after pregnancy.
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I’m the person who wrote above. I’m almost 1 year off birth control and let me tell you this has been a nightmare. Let me also tell you that this has changed me as a person and I think I might be changed forever. My mindset is a lot different and I have accepted that. My ROCD is the biggest problem but gosh have I come a long way! I remember in the beginning of all this( I was only on BC for 2 months & started having ROCD a month in) my anxiety and depression was terrible. I found so weird and distant from my boyfriend that I literally didn’t know what to do with myself. Sometimes I doubt if the pill did this to me but then I remember what I went through and how not normal that is. In the beginning I told my boyfriend that if I try to break up with him he could not let me because that wasn’t how I actually felt. So weird! I’m so much better but obviously if I’m still on this thread the thoughts haven’t completely diminished. I want to feel 100% again with no worries & I want to be in love again like I used to be
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Hi my sister has been going through this for the last year. She developed horrible depression, anxiety, and panic attacks that started after going off the pill after 20 years. We took her to many many many doctors as this was debilitating. Her anxiety was cyclical in that it followed the pattern of her period cycle. Her hormone labs always came back "within normal range" but we just knew that it had to be something with hormones because she was fine before she went off the pill and her symptoms cycled with her period. Recently she was put on an estrogen blocker call Arimidex that she takes every other day now. And I cannot believe it but since taking it she has made a huge turn around almost completely back to her old self. I know many people do not want to go on prescription medication and there is a supplement that also helps with estrogen dominance, many people I talk to on another thread say it helped them a lot it is called Diindolylmethane, or DIM. If you are dealing with what my sister had it might be worth it to research this supplement and give it a try. My heart goes out to all.
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Hey, just wanted to say that was so great of you to stick by your sister. It can be really lonely going through this. Especially when some around you don’t understand or notice how deeply anxiety stricken/depressed you’ve suddenly become, along with the slew of other side effects you have to deal with. It’s also scary and confusing because it happens out of nowhere. Also it’s discouraging not even being able to get help from a doctor. You’re wonderful for being there for her.
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I am in my 7th month as well off of the pill, and I still struggle big time. The day time is much better, I am almost normal feeling. It hits me at night/ evening. Anxiety and insomnia. I can't fall asleep, then I wake up and can't go back to sleep! I have been taking so many different supplements from my naturopath but not with any great improvement. I swore I had no idea a few months ago I'd still be suffering so much every single day. I am starting to wonder if this is permanent??
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I ofter wonder this too :-( what is ur anxiety about? Mines usually surrounding my relationship. All i want is to stop feeling paranoid
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Have you tried Diindolylmethane, or DIM? My sister went through this for 11 months, it has been extremely difficult. She started an estrogen blocker called Arimidex that she takes every third day and since starting has had a huge turn around. DIM is available without a prescription but Arimidex is not.
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Me too. Mines all about ROCD. I just question everything about my partner all the time. Truly terrible. How many months off are you?
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Hello, Im starting my 9th month! How crazy...
Im waiting for my period, so Im feeling low these days. On days like these, I read other forums and Im scared that this isn't only because of BCP. My first ROCD thought happenned a month before I decided to quit bcp. What if it is just a condition that I have and that I now need to deal with for the rest of my life. I cant. I cant live like this... Its not as bad as the beginning but I just want to be happy with him and stop feeling anxious about our future, or stop feeling guilty when he says he loves me more than anything and wants to spend the rest of his life with me. I want to feel the same power and love as he does. How do we know if this is because of me stopping the pill...
Im waiting for my period, so Im feeling low these days. On days like these, I read other forums and Im scared that this isn't only because of BCP. My first ROCD thought happenned a month before I decided to quit bcp. What if it is just a condition that I have and that I now need to deal with for the rest of my life. I cant. I cant live like this... Its not as bad as the beginning but I just want to be happy with him and stop feeling anxious about our future, or stop feeling guilty when he says he loves me more than anything and wants to spend the rest of his life with me. I want to feel the same power and love as he does. How do we know if this is because of me stopping the pill...
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