Im struggling a lot at the moment as well :(
I have a lot of ROCD... its been so long, im scared it is never gonna go away :(
I have fears about if our couple will last... I am scared about these thoughts being "my intuition"... But I am feeling so sad inside, that intuition must not feel like that...
I am also a natural worrier, but does that mean Im going to suffer like this for the rest of my life?
I feel very low about myself right now, currently at day 14...ovulation time of course.
I notice that this month I had a bad 3-4 days after my period and now 3 days during ovulation... what is going on this month?
I have been off for 17 months!!! I am probably the longest to recover if I ever will... I am so sad :(
I appreciate having this forum to come to though..
xxxx
Emma
I have a lot of ROCD... its been so long, im scared it is never gonna go away :(
I have fears about if our couple will last... I am scared about these thoughts being "my intuition"... But I am feeling so sad inside, that intuition must not feel like that...
I am also a natural worrier, but does that mean Im going to suffer like this for the rest of my life?
I feel very low about myself right now, currently at day 14...ovulation time of course.
I notice that this month I had a bad 3-4 days after my period and now 3 days during ovulation... what is going on this month?
I have been off for 17 months!!! I am probably the longest to recover if I ever will... I am so sad :(
I appreciate having this forum to come to though..
xxxx
Emma
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Hi Emma,
I completely understand what you are saying. Yesterday marked 9 months for me. I have only had one period though since coming off. I am currently on bio identical progesterone cream. I’m only on day 5 of that. My ROCD has been really bad also. I’m engaged and planning my wedding. However lately my ROCD has been revolving around the wedding and that I should call it off. Yet last night I had a good night with my fiancé. I just don’t get it. It’s not so much I don’t love him, but has more jumped to the wedding.
It also makes me nervous because I used to get such bad anxiety when these ruminating thoughts would come around. But now I don’t get that physical anxiety anymore. So that then makes me ruminate too on if this is not hormonal and is this how I’m really feeling?
One day at a time. :/
I completely understand what you are saying. Yesterday marked 9 months for me. I have only had one period though since coming off. I am currently on bio identical progesterone cream. I’m only on day 5 of that. My ROCD has been really bad also. I’m engaged and planning my wedding. However lately my ROCD has been revolving around the wedding and that I should call it off. Yet last night I had a good night with my fiancé. I just don’t get it. It’s not so much I don’t love him, but has more jumped to the wedding.
It also makes me nervous because I used to get such bad anxiety when these ruminating thoughts would come around. But now I don’t get that physical anxiety anymore. So that then makes me ruminate too on if this is not hormonal and is this how I’m really feeling?
One day at a time. :/
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I really appreciate having you girls to talk to on the forum as well!! Us being natural worriers just impact us more during these hormonal fluctuations. How long were you on the pill? I’ve seen several women say it took them even up to 2 years to fully recover so don’t worry you’re not alone. Not only do our bodies need time to recover but our minds also. I told you guys I was experiencing a setback, but I’m on day 3 of my period and actually feel much better because I’ve been distracting myself and simply reminding myself it is all hormonal. We have to retrain our minds to remember that we feel at our worst only during times like these! Stay strong Emma xoxo
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I was on the pill for 9 years. Never seemed to have any issues on the pill. It’s when I switch brands this March that I noticed the anxiety and ruminating. It hit me like a brick wall one morning. Woke up and had a full blown panic attack while laying in bed next to my Fiancé.
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Wow I’m so sorry :( a lot of us have also felt fine on the pill and had very abrupt symptoms after stopping or switching. I don’t have ROCD but when I was at my worst, 3 months off, I had a panic attack about a pain I had and then a week later I was hit with sudden intrusive thoughts involving other things. Anxiety makes you worry about the things you truly love, you know you love your fiancé but anxiety makes us question everything. Don’t worry you can get through it! I always say “this too shall pass”.
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Oh girls, Thanks so much for replying so fast!
I was on the pill for maybe 4 years, with really no side effects... Towards the end, the last month or so before stopping I was a complete mess... I thaught i was going insane, thinking I had every disease in the world, it was so weird?!? I was also thinking a lot about my relationship marking the 2 years count and thinking it wasn'T like before... (which is normal)
And exactly a week after I stopped. One night, IT HIT ME LIKE A WALL. Sudden "realisation" : I DON'T LOVE HIM. it has been a living HELL the first 5 months... Until I found this forum and realized it was only hormones, I felt so relieved.
I have been feeling better the last few months. But i still feel something is so wrong with me. I spot a lot before my periods... I have very irregular cycles... And of course, all the emotional and mental part of it follows me after all these months.
It soothes me a lot when I hear "Anxiety makes you worry about the things you truly love", I feel like I can resonate with that. I have to keep on working with letting the thoughts go. Observing them, acknowledging them with no judgement, and letting them pass.
Its just that, I am so stubborn, I have to make sure that I convince myself that I really do love him before thinking about something else, which is the definition of ROCD.
I just hope, one day, that this ROCD will leave my life, and I will be left with no scars of this. Because it truly is frightful to have these train of thoughts.
Thanks girls
Emma
XOXO
I was on the pill for maybe 4 years, with really no side effects... Towards the end, the last month or so before stopping I was a complete mess... I thaught i was going insane, thinking I had every disease in the world, it was so weird?!? I was also thinking a lot about my relationship marking the 2 years count and thinking it wasn'T like before... (which is normal)
And exactly a week after I stopped. One night, IT HIT ME LIKE A WALL. Sudden "realisation" : I DON'T LOVE HIM. it has been a living HELL the first 5 months... Until I found this forum and realized it was only hormones, I felt so relieved.
I have been feeling better the last few months. But i still feel something is so wrong with me. I spot a lot before my periods... I have very irregular cycles... And of course, all the emotional and mental part of it follows me after all these months.
It soothes me a lot when I hear "Anxiety makes you worry about the things you truly love", I feel like I can resonate with that. I have to keep on working with letting the thoughts go. Observing them, acknowledging them with no judgement, and letting them pass.
Its just that, I am so stubborn, I have to make sure that I convince myself that I really do love him before thinking about something else, which is the definition of ROCD.
I just hope, one day, that this ROCD will leave my life, and I will be left with no scars of this. Because it truly is frightful to have these train of thoughts.
Thanks girls
Emma
XOXO
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No problem Emma! You have experienced many of the things that most of us have. I can list soooo many of the things I thought I had when I was at my worst, I seriously thought I was going bananas. But now that I’m 10 months off I’ve improved so much and I know that you will too. I was only on the pill for 6 months, so I think that’s probably why it’s not taking me so long. I feel terrible that you have to go through this :( but like many others have said on the forum, there is light at the end of the tunnel. You can get through it!!
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hey everyone.. Im about 11 months off and am on day three of my period. tonight I've had the worst headache and jittery all over with heightened intrusive thoughts.. anyone else get like this on their period?
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Yes! I’ve been dealing with the same thing but I’m currently feeling a bit better on day 3 of my period. Sometimes I only feel horrible before or after my period but for some reason I felt many symptoms before and during this time. Feel better!!
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I get that horrible jittery feeling so often, at random times during my cycle! It feels like i want to crawl out of my skin or something. Really awful but i couldnt even describe it to a doctor :(
Im on month 6... all month I've had anxiety, dizziness, vision problems... it's like being hungover all the time :(
Im on month 6... all month I've had anxiety, dizziness, vision problems... it's like being hungover all the time :(
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I felt the exact same way at month 6, I felt like I wasn’t myself at all. It gets better!! I honestly feel like as I was going through the symptoms (mainly the psychological ones) a switch went off and I got so much better. i hope that doctors inform women about this some day so we dont have to feel afraid to speak up about it.
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Thankyou- i really hope so!! I really feel like if the physical symptoms went away, so would the mental ones!
I agree about the doctors! It would be so reassuring, especially for those of us with health anxiety. I don't understand how women come off BC all the time to have babies, and are fine!?!
I agree about the doctors! It would be so reassuring, especially for those of us with health anxiety. I don't understand how women come off BC all the time to have babies, and are fine!?!
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I know right!! I have hope we’ll all be better 100% one day. I think one of the most important things to do in the recovery process is separate these symptoms from actual PMS. I’ve gotten better over these past few months and now that I got my period, I had convinced myself I was gonna be back in square one. All it took was reminding myself that moments of anxiety also happen during regular PMS and even before I ever took the pill, so now I’ve been feeling better. It just takes time to retrain the mind!
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Hey Ladies,
Has anyone ever tried doing acupuncture to help with the healing process? I have read on other blogs that it can be beneficial. I am currently 9 months off and am still struggling to get a normal cycle. I am also still deal with ROCD and mild depression. Just feel "blah" all the time and just can't seem to get out of my funk.
I am naturally an anxious person, but prior to stopping BCP, I never second guessed or analyzed every little thing like I do now since stopping. Including my relationship.
Any thoughts?
~Brea
Has anyone ever tried doing acupuncture to help with the healing process? I have read on other blogs that it can be beneficial. I am currently 9 months off and am still struggling to get a normal cycle. I am also still deal with ROCD and mild depression. Just feel "blah" all the time and just can't seem to get out of my funk.
I am naturally an anxious person, but prior to stopping BCP, I never second guessed or analyzed every little thing like I do now since stopping. Including my relationship.
Any thoughts?
~Brea
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Has anyone taken Zinc here? I started taking 50 mg of Zinc glutonate once a day just for my acne that has gone haywire since coming off the pill and it actually made me have my first period since October. I read online that zinc helps a lot with period regulation and PCOS (which I do have) and it helps clear up acne within about 2 weeks. If you guys need help with regulating I recommend trying it! A lot of people are zinc deficient and especially after coming off of hormonal bc. Just be sure to take it after a meal because it can make you nauseous
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