Yeah I’ve experienced the same. Just last week before I got my period I was waking up every 2 hours feeling panicky. I’ve been doing somewhat okay, I just have a bit of health anxiety (like about my sleeping issues and the random mind pops that I keep getting several times throughout the day). I get worried that there’s something actually wrong but then sometimes I’m able to think rationally and not get anxious about it. I just keep getting myself worked up over the mind pops
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Yup that tends to happen to me right before my period. Ugh I can’t wait till the day these are all just things of the past, I’m just so over it!
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I know right! I’m so tired of this. I really hate that I’m dealing with the health anxiety about me losing my mind and to top it off it’s like the more I think about the mind pops and other issues, the more frequently I experience them. This sucks
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After three years off the pill I keep finding myself checking this forum for reassurance during this MAJOR set back. Throughout these 3 years I have had my ups and my downs. Symptoms have come and go but the thing that has stayed consistent is my ROCD. I was OK for a long time. The thoughts were there, but they were in the back of my mind. In the beginning the thoughts of not loving my partner consumed most of my mind. I went through stages of doubting my love for him, doubting his love for me, questioning if i find him attractive, questioning if I see a future with him + so much more. I obsessed over the thoughts of not loving him and I tried to find so many things wrong with our faultless relationship. Over the past month or so I have realized that these thoughts have found their way back to me. Often when I'm with him I question my feelings for him and I analyze our relationship. Truthfully, I find it so hard to believe that I stuck with him after all these thoughts of doubt (maybe that just means that its meant to be). I want so badly for these thoughts to go away so that I can feel in love again. I think that even when everything is okay and I start to feel any type of love, I shut it down instantly because the thoughts will always be in the back of my head. I wish there was an off switch to all of this! I hope you are all doing okay, you're stronger than you know.
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We’re all here for you! You’re not alone at all, I’m not in a relationship so I haven’t dealt with those thoughts but I did used to question my love for my family even though I know I love them 100%. I think the fact that we know we’re not really feeling like ourselves is what sort of makes us question our true values and what not. And that makes it a never ending cycle :( but trust me I totally understand what you mean because although I’m not dealing with the ROCD doubts, I’m constantly doubting who I really am, my health, etc. I know that we’ll all get through this! Even if it takes longer than we’d like.
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I love this forum so much. I’m almost 3 years post-pill and am having a pretty bad setback as well but I don’t struggle with ROCD very much, mainly just existential thoughts and derealization, which sucks. But we will all make it through this! We had good times before these setbacks and we will have good times again! Just know that you are not your thoughts. I hate to sound so cliche but have you tried meditation? That can help a lot.
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Want to add while I don’t have ROCD (and this might sound silly) I do feel that way about my dog sometimes. I’ve had him for 7 years and he’s always been my best buddy but lately I sometimes feel so numb towards him. Which makes me super sad. I know this isn’t really me though because I’ve always been a crazy dog lady haha. We’ve just got to hold on and we’ll make it through this eventually!
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I’m with you on the derealization, I don’t get it like I used to but I know how horrifying it is. I actually had it really bad for a few months about 4 years ago, and looking back I really think it may have been because of my PCOS or just my overall health. I was so in a zone for a long time and when I was with friends every day I’d sort of panic because I didn’t know why I was feeling like I was in a dream all the time. But then I started taking vitamin B12 and it went away! My mom recommended it because she always knew that B12 has a major impact on our bodies and minds.
I haven’t tried meditation and I think I really should, along with exercise because I live a pretty sedentary lifestyle. I’m just always procrastinating lol that’s probably why I’m not really recovering as much as I’d like. And omg I was the same with my dog for a while! I had thoughts about not loving her, what if I hurt her, etc. I’m sure your feelings will come back!
I haven’t tried meditation and I think I really should, along with exercise because I live a pretty sedentary lifestyle. I’m just always procrastinating lol that’s probably why I’m not really recovering as much as I’d like. And omg I was the same with my dog for a while! I had thoughts about not loving her, what if I hurt her, etc. I’m sure your feelings will come back!
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Insight Timer is my favorite meditation app if you decide to give it a try. You can pay for a membership but I don’t. The free meditations work just fine for me. Sarah Blondin and Andrew Johnson are my favorite teachers on there.
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Hey guys, how are you all feeling? I’ve been having a rough past few days and I just feel so blah. Once again my sleeping has been so off and I constantly make myself panic over the most minor things. Last night I couldn’t sleep until like 4 AM and my mind was racing so much I was like hearing random phrases in my mind (not out loud) and of course I started overthinking it lol. The pandemic has really really made my routine go out of whack and I hate it so much. I try to remind myself I’ll be fine but lately the dreaming as soon as I start dozing off and the mind pops (which I bring up on here a lot) make me worry even though I know it’s most likely just the anxiety/fatigue.
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Hey guys, how are you all feeling? I’ve been having a rough past few days and I just feel so blah. Once again my sleeping has been so off and I constantly make myself panic over the most minor things. Last night I couldn’t sleep until like 4 AM and my mind was racing so much I was like hearing random phrases in my mind (not out loud) and of course I started overthinking it lol. The pandemic has really really made my routine go out of whack and I hate it so much. I try to remind myself I’ll be fine but lately the dreaming as soon as I start dozing off and the mind pops (which I bring up on here a lot) make me worry even though I know it’s most likely just the anxiety/fatigue.
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I know this isn’t the BEST advice but do you have any way to distract yourself when you’re up at night with your thoughts? If you can’t get to sleep anyway I don’t see anything wrong with maybe reading or scrolling on your phone if you need to. Of course we need to face our anxiety and find ways to work through it but there have been plenty of times where just distraction myself has really helped.
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Definitely! I honestly scroll through my phone 24/7 lol which is probably what keeps me up at night especially when I’m anxiously researching. I have to work on distracting myself more though, like even playing a calming game on my phone or something instead of looking up symptoms and what not. I’m sure if I were to just fully stop googling everything and worrying about the future then I’d improve greatly
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Probably, but I know it’s hard! I’m trying to spend less time on my phone and focus more on the present but I woke up super anxious this morning and the first thing I did was start scrolling. it’s like my automatic coping mechanism and I hate it.
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