I’ve been meditating a lot and journaling and reading and it’s all helped. The gist of everything I’ve learned in therapy and elsewhere is that I need to acknowledge my feelings, let myself feel them but don’t let them control me. And I try so hard. Some days it works. But some days when I wake up and I feel like I’m in someone else’s body and so disconnected and like I don’t even recognize my own life, it’s the most uncomfortable feeling and I just want it to go away. I feel like I’m going crazy. And I know I’m not, I’ve dealt with this long enough to know exactly what’s going on, but I’m also tired of dealing with it and I just want it to be over. It’s so frustrating I feel like I could just cry, and a lot of times I do lol. I hate that this has turned me into such an anxious weepy mess and I feel bad for everyone around me for having to deal with it. Sorry for the venting I just had a rough night of sleep and I think that led to some instant anxiety the second I woke up. It’s at least nice to have a community here who understands.
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Yup, same with me! When I have stuff to do I feel so much better but man I wish I could enjoy my alone time like I used to. I think I might just have to start disciplining myself to be more positive when I’m by myself lol like maybe it’ll help if I watch funny shows or listen to upbeat music. Whenever I’m alone I just start spiraling into all the crazy thoughts again
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No need to be sorry, this is a safe space for us all to express our feelings! This is like one of the worst experiences for us to be dealing with so I’m glad we can all talk and relate. But I understand 100%, I always get super anxious about going crazy. It’s really so difficult to not let these feelings control us, that’s actually become one of my main problems. I let the fear of losing my mind consume me even though I know the anxiety just sends my brain into overdrive, which makes me think that my thoughts will eventually turn into something serious. But I know they won’t. I think we’ll all look back one day and feel relieved when we’re healed!
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Hi! How are you doing? I’m just getting over my ovulation week definitely pmsing. I’ve been going through a pretty lengthy setback and I’m just hopeful for the day I start to think clearer some days I feel like I am In the home stretch others not so much! Ready for the weekend’!
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Hey, I’m okay! I’ve been functioning but with just some more anxious thoughts since I’ve also been dealing with a setback since last month. I’ve been exercising this week though so hopefully it makes a change in my mood. How are you?
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I’ve been back on my supplements (Vitex, vitamin D, and 5HTP) for about two weeks now and I’m feeling much better. Don’t know why I ever stopped. Currently ovulating which is usually an anxiety trigger, but I’ve actually been kind of okay. We’ll see how things go with my next period. But I’ve also been trying to meditate and practice yoga every day and I just started a two-week (maybe longer) social media detox. So hopefully all of these things will continue to help. Fingers crossed!
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Omg I’m glad!!! That’s great that you’re doing everything you can to help yourself. I actually had a telemedicine appointment with a nurse practitioner the other day and I was prescribed Vitamin D, B-12, iron, and magnesium so I’m hoping once I get them from my pharmacy I can start feeling better. She told me that me having my period for a month due to stress definitely depleted all the important vitamins and my iron, which now makes me wonder if that could be why I’m having such a bad setback since last month. But I’m so glad you’re feeling okay especially during ovulation! I can’t wait till we’re fully recovered lol
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Oh wow. Yes, having a period for a month would definitely mess you up. But I think the supplements will probably help a lot! I’d be lost without mine.
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Hi ladies I hope everyone is having a good day today! I think I’m on the tail end of this very long lasting setback, it started in May only during my cycle, June again during my cycle and July during ovulation I had a major meltdown and have slowly been recovering since! It’s been tough because before that I was definitely feeling the best I had since this madness began I had my random bouts of anxiety but was handling them much better. Last month during ovulation I had convinced myself there was no way I had felt better and that I have just been feeling like this since this all started three years ago, I am happy to say that I recognize that’s not true now. I’m about to get my cycle again this month and I’ve had little bouts of anxiousness here and there. The thoughts are there but I’m luckily not super fixated. I am not totally free of it, but I’m hopeful. I have actually done many of the things you ladies have done exercising, journaling, social media cleanse, started taking my multivitamin again and I’ve taken up a few new hobbies. I think it has been helpful and I hope to keep it up. I’m looking to start therapy and hopefully take some supplements. I am happy to see you guys are finding things that are helping you and as always so happy we can keep up with each other here! Hope to hear back from you all soon.
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My setback sounds very similar to yours. It was kind of a slow build-up and then July was almost unbearable. I literally thought about committing myself a few times because I was sure I was going crazy. Anyway, today has been a bit rough just with some random intrusive thoughts and feeling a bit “off” but overall I feel more hopeful than I did last month and I’m hoping that each month will get easier to deal with, until I’m back to where I was at the beginning of this year. Only this time I WON’T stop taking my supplements and maybe I’ll feel even better! Glad to hear you’re doing well! I’m so grateful for this community I just sometimes wish we could actually talk instead of typing out all of these feelings.
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I feel EXACTLY the same way, specifically when you mentioned “I had convinced myself there was no way I had felt better and that I have just been feeling like this since this all started three years ago”. That has been me since like the beginning of July. I was so sure back in June that I had mostly overcome the worst of this experience, but now I’m constantly panicking about every thought I have and i’m back to googling everything. I’m on cycle day 17 right now and for some reason I’m always really anxious around this time, I hate it. I’m not really experiencing the scarier intrusive thoughts anymore but now (as I’ve mentioned a few times before) I get scared that I’ll end up going insane one day. I’m always obsessing over the frequent mind pops I have and I just want to be over this.
I’m glad you’re taking up hobbies and doing things to heal, I have faith we’ll all fully get through it!
I’m glad you’re taking up hobbies and doing things to heal, I have faith we’ll all fully get through it!
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Same, I wish we could all meet up lol. I feel a bit better than last month like you are, but I’m still quite anxious just about my mental health and stuff. I would do anything for all of us to feel 100% normal again ugh!
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Seriously you guys have been fundamental to this journey for me! I am due for my cycle soon so I’m a little on edge as well! Hang in there friends!
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