Been having a tough couple of days on the tail end of my ovulation. Just a lot of HOCD and scary thoughts to the point where I’m kind of scared to be around anyone. Not fun. But I feel like I’m managing pretty well. And I’m still proud of myself for always pushing through no matter how difficult or terrifying it is. We should all be proud of ourselves for our resilience and tenacity. We’re gonna make it through this! I truly believe that.
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Oh no! I’m sorry to hear that :( I’m sure you’ll begin to feel better eventually even if it doesn’t seem like it. I wish I could just hug all of you, this experience is scary and I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. But I have faith too! I think one day we’ll be looking back at this all as a distant memory
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Hey, how are you all feeling? I’ve been having a bit of an anxious day today, not sure why. I did have some cold brew coffee this morning and was feeling jittery after so maybe that’s why I started feeling weird throughout the day lol but I’m not too sure. I’ve just been having random intrusive thoughts that I can sort of brush off but at the same time they make me a panic a little. Hopefully I’ll feel better tomorrow :(
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I had to cut out caffeine years ago because it triggered my anxiety. But I understand how you feel. Yesterday was my first truly good day in a long time, but with each day I seem to feel better! So just hang in there. Your good days are coming!
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I need to force myself to give up caffeine, I’m not a full blown addict but I drink it more than I should lol. That’s awesome that you’re feeling better! I’m a bit better than I was last night, just still having some off moments. Thank you! I’m refusing to give up I know I can definitely improve
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Anyone else in that weird limbo where you feel much better (as in not panicking constantly, able to live your life) and you’re grateful for it, but you still feel kind of off? Like you feel better but don’t feel like yourself? And there’s just an edge of anxiety. And the occasional intrusive thought that really throws you off. I’m so grateful for my progress and I don’t want to complain but I just can’t wait to wake up and feel like ME. Trying not to ruminate on it too much.
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I went through sooo many times like this! I’ve been more anxious than usual since last month because of this setback but today I felt so amazing yet off. I feel like maybe it could be that we got so used to feeling awful that now our minds have to take a while to accept feeling fine again.
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Agreed the anxiety is slowly starting to wear off and as soon as I notice I’m not focusing on something that’s making me anxious I freak myself out and think about the stupid intrusive thoughts! Whyyyy
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I understand completely, that’s what happens to me eveeery time I feel good. It sucks but I think over time once we have way more good days we’ll be okay. For months I was actually doing fine with barely any thoughts, I wasn’t constantly googling so I just have to remember that I did feel good at one point
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Does anyone else ever get like constant chatter in their minds? Last night I couldn’t sleep and it almost felt as if I was in a train station or something with people constantly talking (I didn’t hear these out loud but just felt like I had a bunch of random dialogues going on in my mind). I get so anxious about it whenever it happens. It doesn’t happen all the time but on occasion I’ll have like random phrases pop into my mind and what not.
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Happy to report I’ve had two good days in a row! It feels weird honestly. Like I don’t know what to do without my anxious thoughts? haha gonna enjoy this progress though. How is everyone else feeling?
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That’s great! I’ve been feeling better since yesterday as well, I haven’t really had much of the mind chatter I posted about before which was probably my lack of sleep/anxiety. I’m starting my last semester of undergrad today so hopefully all the work will get my mind off of this setback. I just want to feel better and I have hope that I will!
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Hi! Having some much better days finally after this last meltdown, I still have the occasional intrusive thought but I’m able to kind of push it away! This last episode was ridiculous, I don’t know if feeling good for some time made it harder to process my emotions but it almost felt like I had reverted back to the very beginning. This is definitely the strangest experience of my life. I wonder how my body will react to pregnancy hormones. I am hoping since it’s something my body will be producing naturally I won’t go ballistic again, being a mom is something I’ve always wanted and something I will hopefully be able to embark on in the near future and I really want to enjoy that for what it is you know! Anyway enough blabbing how is everyone else doing?
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