Ok, basicly I have a growth in front of my anus the size of a jelly bean.  Hurts all to high hell to touch or if i squeeze my but cheeks, walk wrong etc.  I had to purchase pads to put on my underware because by the end of my work day my underware would be soaked with blood to the point of being visable on the outside of my jeans.  I have to change this pad about 4 times a day.

However it does not hurt in the least bit during a bowl movement.  In fact I feel releif during the movement.  Once done though, the wiping is horridly painfull and the tissue is full of blood and what looks like little pieces of blood jello.    

I had this happen to me last winter and it stopped bleeding and shrunk down (did not go away) after two months, however last week it started all over again.

At first I thought hemroids but every post I read, the person says it hurts to poop and they only get blood when wiping. 

Any Ideas?  Does this warrant an ER visit?  No medical insurance or free clinics around me so any help would be appreciated.