Hi. I don't understand why this has made me cry so many times. I feel like a maniac. I am 12 days late for my period, which has NEVER happened before- and I have been through some very stressful life experiences. I was not stressed at the beginning of this, but now I feel crazy and am thinking I am delaying my own period with my upsettness (is that a word?) I have roving cramps- today they are in my lower abdomen- nausea, exhaustion, this strange fluttery feeling, headaches, and on and off cervical mucus (clear/white)- when my period was due there was a lot of cm, and now it varies. I just got word of a negative blood test, and have had several negative HPTs. My doctor told me that I need to test again at the end of this week, and I feel pregnant, but I have been reading so many posts that talk about how we can trick ourselves, and I just can't take this distraction anymore. We are not ttc, but I am finding myself kind of wanting a baby. My question is, I'm thinking about taking a xanax or kolonopin to calm down my anxiety and maybe jumpstart a period. Does that sound like a bad idea? I realize that there are exceptions to the accuracy of a blood test, but really, how often does that actually happen? I feel a very strong sense of love for any of my future children, and don't want to hurt a possible baby, but if there is such a low chance of a pregnancy, a xanax might really give me some needed relief, and possibly snap me out of this enough to get a period... what do you think? Could I be hurting a baby? Could a baby exist (for reals)?