Thanks Ann - it was a hellish day. But I got a few laughs out of Bridget Jones tonight. Now lets hope I can get some sleep!
And so good to know I'm not alone, sure feels like it sometimes doesn't it? Glad you are feeling better now :)
And so good to know I'm not alone, sure feels like it sometimes doesn't it? Glad you are feeling better now :)
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Sierra,
My issues with anxiety were like yours in the beginning. I would wonder if I was going crazy and would get jittery. However, the anxiety eventually turned into depressive thoughts and I didn't experience it anymore. What you're describing sounds like what I went through with my first (and only) panic attack. I got jittery, my heart was racing, I was getting hot then the shivers, and had to get up and walk around because I couldn't sit still.
I already am extremely grateful that I got off the pill, and also that I tried it out when I did. If I'd waited a little longer I could've been dealing with the worst of it during my wedding. Yikes!
My issues with anxiety were like yours in the beginning. I would wonder if I was going crazy and would get jittery. However, the anxiety eventually turned into depressive thoughts and I didn't experience it anymore. What you're describing sounds like what I went through with my first (and only) panic attack. I got jittery, my heart was racing, I was getting hot then the shivers, and had to get up and walk around because I couldn't sit still.
I already am extremely grateful that I got off the pill, and also that I tried it out when I did. If I'd waited a little longer I could've been dealing with the worst of it during my wedding. Yikes!
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Sierra-
Over the past couple of months some symptoms of my anxiety have included: trouble sleeping (both falling asleep and then waking in a panic in the middle of the night), intrusive thoughts that I am literally going insane or losing my mind, feeling nervous for no reason, feeling very tense, or "on edge", and the most alarming to me (and the one that makes me feel like I'm going crazy) is this VERY STRANGE "off" feeling that I get...almost like I'm literally not myself, like I don't recognize myself anymore, if that makes any sense. And I'll become extremely hypersensitive to it. It's this BIZARRE sensation that I'm "not real" or I'm having an identity loss or something. It's very hard to describe and I have feared putting that in words on here because it just sounds so CRAZY. Yet, as I've mentioned in an earlier post my symptoms are starting to slowly diminish. Has anyone else experienced this extremely STRANGE sensation during this ordeal? If so, please let me know.
Over the past couple of months some symptoms of my anxiety have included: trouble sleeping (both falling asleep and then waking in a panic in the middle of the night), intrusive thoughts that I am literally going insane or losing my mind, feeling nervous for no reason, feeling very tense, or "on edge", and the most alarming to me (and the one that makes me feel like I'm going crazy) is this VERY STRANGE "off" feeling that I get...almost like I'm literally not myself, like I don't recognize myself anymore, if that makes any sense. And I'll become extremely hypersensitive to it. It's this BIZARRE sensation that I'm "not real" or I'm having an identity loss or something. It's very hard to describe and I have feared putting that in words on here because it just sounds so CRAZY. Yet, as I've mentioned in an earlier post my symptoms are starting to slowly diminish. Has anyone else experienced this extremely STRANGE sensation during this ordeal? If so, please let me know.
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Hi Heather!
I'm glad to hear that all those crazy feelings aren't just me, because that just confirms even more that I'm not going insane, and it will pass. I do know what you're talking about when you feel "off" and like you're "not real." It's the strangest feeling and I get some little thoughts like that on my really bad days... and like you, that's what freaks me out the most.
But some comforting words that I read is to keep reminding yourself that if you were actually going crazy, you wouldn't be aware of it. The fact that you have that little voice in the back of your head that knows who you really are, and therefore gets freaked out by these insane thoughts, means you're sane and it's just anxiety. On my good days, it just seems so silly to me that I'd be scared of those stupid thoughts, or even have them in the first place. But on bad days, it's like there's nothing more terrifying. I hate it!! I would be all for any physical pain over these thoughts. It's amazing what hormones can do =/
Like I said, I see my "natural" doctor (the one that believes all this lol) today and I will discuss the progesterone cream. I'm trying not to get my hopes up just in case it doesn't work or she doesn't recommend it, but I'm really hoping its the answer!! Hang in there!
I'm glad to hear that all those crazy feelings aren't just me, because that just confirms even more that I'm not going insane, and it will pass. I do know what you're talking about when you feel "off" and like you're "not real." It's the strangest feeling and I get some little thoughts like that on my really bad days... and like you, that's what freaks me out the most.
But some comforting words that I read is to keep reminding yourself that if you were actually going crazy, you wouldn't be aware of it. The fact that you have that little voice in the back of your head that knows who you really are, and therefore gets freaked out by these insane thoughts, means you're sane and it's just anxiety. On my good days, it just seems so silly to me that I'd be scared of those stupid thoughts, or even have them in the first place. But on bad days, it's like there's nothing more terrifying. I hate it!! I would be all for any physical pain over these thoughts. It's amazing what hormones can do =/
Like I said, I see my "natural" doctor (the one that believes all this lol) today and I will discuss the progesterone cream. I'm trying not to get my hopes up just in case it doesn't work or she doesn't recommend it, but I'm really hoping its the answer!! Hang in there!
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Sierra-
Thank you so much for responding! It makes me feel SO much better that someone else has that same alarming symptom! I can relate to everything you wrote...especially regarding how on my "good" days I think how silly it is to think in such a way, yet on the bad days it's so very scary! Again, just further confirmation it has to be the hormones...
Best of luck at the doctor...keep us posted!
Thank you so much for responding! It makes me feel SO much better that someone else has that same alarming symptom! I can relate to everything you wrote...especially regarding how on my "good" days I think how silly it is to think in such a way, yet on the bad days it's so very scary! Again, just further confirmation it has to be the hormones...
Best of luck at the doctor...keep us posted!
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Hi girls I thought I'd give am update on how I'm doing .
I was having an ok week but the last two day have been a little tough I have been very irritable snapping at my boyfriend mostly and I feel so guilty after i do it. Today was tough I was irritable all day starting little arguments and just felt emotional all day I'm due my period tomorrow so it's because of that.
Today those negative thoughts were creeping back in about my boyfriend little thoughs saying " ya dont love ur boyfriend your better off alone your hurting him by staying with him" this upsets me so much I just want to be back toy normal self I'm still out of work as I have to be cleared first my the jobs doctor before they allow me to go back and it's just so hard being at home all the time ya know.
I hope all you girls are doing ok thinking of you all .
Jen x
I was having an ok week but the last two day have been a little tough I have been very irritable snapping at my boyfriend mostly and I feel so guilty after i do it. Today was tough I was irritable all day starting little arguments and just felt emotional all day I'm due my period tomorrow so it's because of that.
Today those negative thoughts were creeping back in about my boyfriend little thoughs saying " ya dont love ur boyfriend your better off alone your hurting him by staying with him" this upsets me so much I just want to be back toy normal self I'm still out of work as I have to be cleared first my the jobs doctor before they allow me to go back and it's just so hard being at home all the time ya know.
I hope all you girls are doing ok thinking of you all .
Jen x
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Just breathe! I had a horrible week and today is the first day I'm feeling back to normal... and believe me - 2 days ago I didn't think I would ever feel normal again. I know it's a lot tougher being out of work because you're not as distracted, so maybe you could find something, anything, to distract you from those crazy thoughts. For instance, this is going to sound silly, but the other day, in the midst of a horrible day, I was home alone and having those crazy thoughts. I tend to not get house chores done when I'm like that, so I just blasted some music and cleaned the house as I sang along. It actually felt really good, and I think it actually relieved some of my tension. This will sound silly too, but singing along to "break-up" songs really helped because I imagined I was breaking up with my anxiety, not my fiance.
Just hang in there!! This will pass and you will starting feeling better soon. We just need to keep reminding ourselves that we always come out of the funk... it just takes time.
Hope you start feeling better soon!
Just hang in there!! This will pass and you will starting feeling better soon. We just need to keep reminding ourselves that we always come out of the funk... it just takes time.
Hope you start feeling better soon!
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When you got that strange sensation do you still have it or does it ever go away because ive been off birth control for 2 months now and i still have it really bad but that could also be because of the anxiety. Im so sick of feeling this way all the time and none of the drs wanna believe me when i say that this all happened when i got off birth control and ive had ever kind of test done under the sun and theyve came up normal how long has everyone been off the pill and what symptoms are u still experiencing ? I know there's light at the end of the tunnel but when will this nightmare go away
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Hi Girls,
Im not really having a good time at the moment. Last week i had two days were i was very irritable and the weekend was ok but today and yesterday its like the negative thinking has taken over again. It always about my Boyfriend and it really upsets me so much i just want all of these thoughts to go away.
I was supposed to get my period saturday and i didnt so im three days late today has been my worse day im having negative thoughts and feeling very emotional i hate being like this.
I really wish i could understand why all my negative thinking is about my boyfriend :(:(
Im not really having a good time at the moment. Last week i had two days were i was very irritable and the weekend was ok but today and yesterday its like the negative thinking has taken over again. It always about my Boyfriend and it really upsets me so much i just want all of these thoughts to go away.
I was supposed to get my period saturday and i didnt so im three days late today has been my worse day im having negative thoughts and feeling very emotional i hate being like this.
I really wish i could understand why all my negative thinking is about my boyfriend :(:(
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Hey girl!
Hang in there - all of last week I was a complete mess. I know exactly how you're feeling and I know how hard it is to think you'll never feel the same about him again. Don't worry! You will, I promise!
Especially since you missed your period, that right there says that your hormones are going crazy - so just remind yourself that it's the hormones talking. I tried to figure out why it's always negative thoughts about your boyfriend and the reason could be because that's the only thing you feel you have control over. You could break up with him whenever, it's all in your control - but you feel out of control when it comes to how you're feeling and what you're thinking. Just slow down and remind yourself every time a negative thought comes into your head that its just hormones and tell it to go away. I found that looking at old pictures and going through memories of my relationship with my fiance helped me feel better again.
You may want to look into meditation too. I downloaded an app on my Android phone that's called "Stop panic and anxiety" and it actually really helps me when i'm in the midst of an attack. It has recorded audio of this woman who guides you through calming down and it actually helped me get over one this past weekend. Hang in there! You WILL be fine. I promise :)
Hang in there - all of last week I was a complete mess. I know exactly how you're feeling and I know how hard it is to think you'll never feel the same about him again. Don't worry! You will, I promise!
Especially since you missed your period, that right there says that your hormones are going crazy - so just remind yourself that it's the hormones talking. I tried to figure out why it's always negative thoughts about your boyfriend and the reason could be because that's the only thing you feel you have control over. You could break up with him whenever, it's all in your control - but you feel out of control when it comes to how you're feeling and what you're thinking. Just slow down and remind yourself every time a negative thought comes into your head that its just hormones and tell it to go away. I found that looking at old pictures and going through memories of my relationship with my fiance helped me feel better again.
You may want to look into meditation too. I downloaded an app on my Android phone that's called "Stop panic and anxiety" and it actually really helps me when i'm in the midst of an attack. It has recorded audio of this woman who guides you through calming down and it actually helped me get over one this past weekend. Hang in there! You WILL be fine. I promise :)
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Hi Sierra,
Thanks so much for your fast reply means alot. Yeah i know what you mean like today he was leaving for work and i kissed him goodbye and felt so in love and then when he leaves im at home alone and my mind starts racing again and telling all these things.
My therapist told me what you just said she said i have a BIG problem with loss in my life the past year my dad three brothers died and my hole entire life growing up my father has been sick. Me and my dad are really close i love him so much and my therapist told me that i have no control if my father dies but i do have control if i break up with mark and in my head im thinking if i break up i will never have to feel that loss wives go through. do ya get me...i probably sound mad but my therapist said that coming off the pill my hormones going mad the stresses in my life didnt help the situation :(:(
Thanks so much for your fast reply means alot. Yeah i know what you mean like today he was leaving for work and i kissed him goodbye and felt so in love and then when he leaves im at home alone and my mind starts racing again and telling all these things.
My therapist told me what you just said she said i have a BIG problem with loss in my life the past year my dad three brothers died and my hole entire life growing up my father has been sick. Me and my dad are really close i love him so much and my therapist told me that i have no control if my father dies but i do have control if i break up with mark and in my head im thinking if i break up i will never have to feel that loss wives go through. do ya get me...i probably sound mad but my therapist said that coming off the pill my hormones going mad the stresses in my life didnt help the situation :(:(
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No problem! I know what it feels like to need someone quickly when you're feeling like that. I hate it :(
I'm so sorry to hear about your dad and brothers. I can't even imagine that. I'm glad you're seeing a therapist - that should really help. I totally get what you're saying that if you break up you won't have to feel the pain of loss. And I know that loss is so hard to deal with, but I think it's way healthier to love someone with all your heart, even though there will always be that fear, rather than not love anyone at all.
It's always worse for me when I'm alone. I know sometimes you have no option, but if you have a friend or anyone that you can go have lunch with or something I'd recommend it. I really really don't like being alone when I feel like that, so do whatever you can to get your mind distracted. I know that for me it's easier to say that now since I'm feeling normal again, but it really is the answer.
Keep your head up! Maybe plan a romantic dinner or something for tonight. That will get your mind on planning instead of those crazy thoughts :)
I'm so sorry to hear about your dad and brothers. I can't even imagine that. I'm glad you're seeing a therapist - that should really help. I totally get what you're saying that if you break up you won't have to feel the pain of loss. And I know that loss is so hard to deal with, but I think it's way healthier to love someone with all your heart, even though there will always be that fear, rather than not love anyone at all.
It's always worse for me when I'm alone. I know sometimes you have no option, but if you have a friend or anyone that you can go have lunch with or something I'd recommend it. I really really don't like being alone when I feel like that, so do whatever you can to get your mind distracted. I know that for me it's easier to say that now since I'm feeling normal again, but it really is the answer.
Keep your head up! Maybe plan a romantic dinner or something for tonight. That will get your mind on planning instead of those crazy thoughts :)
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Hi girls. I just came back from having a root canal (ugh) and saw your posts. I had the same issues in terms of being alone versus being with my fiance. I'm a teacher, so in the summers, I'm at home doing all my work. My fiance works second shift, so I'm basically home all day by myself most of the time. I too would kiss him goodbye, and then shortly afterward the negative thoughts would start. I was usually okay once I saw him again. I think this is a small sign that you're getting better though. When I first began to go through all of this, my fiance actually made things worse because I even felt bad being around him.
I agree with Sierra, in that it's best to distract yourself as much as possible. For me, that meant getting out of the house. I never really had any money to spend, but I would go window-shopping just to give myself something to do and something else to think about.
Always remember that you will get through this and will feel love again. I'm living proof!!
I agree with Sierra, in that it's best to distract yourself as much as possible. For me, that meant getting out of the house. I never really had any money to spend, but I would go window-shopping just to give myself something to do and something else to think about.
Always remember that you will get through this and will feel love again. I'm living proof!!
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JammyDodgers1411 wrote:
Yeah I've seen research on this. This stuff just angers me so much because these doctors, who are paid by the pharmaceutical companies to push these drugs, just hand them out like candy without taking into consideration what they're doing to our bodies. And I don't care if Ocella is supposed to be exactly the same as Yasmin - it's not. I noticed an immediate reaction from being switched but I didn't put 2 and 2 together until a few weeks ago (after being on it for almost a year).
Lets just all be thankful we figured out what it was and we are taking steps to make ourselves healthy again. I will never, ever take any form of hormonal birth control again. These people need to be held responsible, but of course they won't be. I just hope to spread the word, because I'm sure there are countless women out there that are dealing with the exact same things we are and have no idea why. I am so thankful I found this forum! It has literally been my crutch getting through this insanity!
Hi girls,
I was just doin some research and this is scary and I'd like anyone who is still on Yasmin, yaz or ocella to watch this I'm so shocked.....
http://m.youtube.com/index?desktop_uri=%2F&gl=IE#/watch?v=1lC5qinKDvg
Please watch this link x
Yeah I've seen research on this. This stuff just angers me so much because these doctors, who are paid by the pharmaceutical companies to push these drugs, just hand them out like candy without taking into consideration what they're doing to our bodies. And I don't care if Ocella is supposed to be exactly the same as Yasmin - it's not. I noticed an immediate reaction from being switched but I didn't put 2 and 2 together until a few weeks ago (after being on it for almost a year).
Lets just all be thankful we figured out what it was and we are taking steps to make ourselves healthy again. I will never, ever take any form of hormonal birth control again. These people need to be held responsible, but of course they won't be. I just hope to spread the word, because I'm sure there are countless women out there that are dealing with the exact same things we are and have no idea why. I am so thankful I found this forum! It has literally been my crutch getting through this insanity!
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I think this is awful that this pill can do this to you. And what annoys me even more that doctors have the nerve to then tell you that the things that we are experiencing is nothing to do with taking the pill or coming off it.
I had a good day me and my boyfriend went out for a lovely meal and then to the cinema, but my mind was wandering like mad with all the negative thoughts. I still have not got my period and im assuming this is why im feeling all fuzzy,emotional and having negative thoughts. Im scared my worst fear is that this is my head telling me that i just don't love my biyfriend anymore, but me saying that now makes me cry so obviously there are still feelings there awww girls my head i wrecked. :(:(:(
I had a good day me and my boyfriend went out for a lovely meal and then to the cinema, but my mind was wandering like mad with all the negative thoughts. I still have not got my period and im assuming this is why im feeling all fuzzy,emotional and having negative thoughts. Im scared my worst fear is that this is my head telling me that i just don't love my biyfriend anymore, but me saying that now makes me cry so obviously there are still feelings there awww girls my head i wrecked. :(:(:(
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