Gay intercourse with friends?

It is probably the reaction to things you have read or seen. The fact you have thoughts does not means you have the unfuelled natural desire. Sex is a powerful thing, and while it was created for good, often has proved to be overpowering and abused. So what you feel does not mean you should pursue it. You are allowing fiction to cross the border into real life. Zeke is fictional - fantasy. But I suspect you have also been viewing other more sexual material, maybe porn (which is also staged), and this is dangerous . You need to stop what is fuelling your sexual desires.

You say your parents are Christians. Are you? How old are you? Where are you from?

I hope this helps as a start. If you want to talk more about this, please do so.

Hi Unknown Stranger
Being conflicted and unsure about your sexuality can be a tough thing but it is also part of the process of growing and developing and discovering your sexuality.
There is often curiosity and same sex experimentation among guys during puberty and it does not necessarily mean you’re gay if you have feeling towards another guy.
I am just wondering if in your case could it be that you have already figured out that you are gay and the conflict is mainly due to coming to terms with your sexuality and that you have a great deal of concern about how your religious and antigay parents would react to having a gay son.
Your attraction to your friend could be very a difficult thing and if you decided to tell him about your feelings it could result in being your first step or leap in coming out depending on how it went.
You are the only one that truly knows your sexuality and the battle can often be coming to terms with it.
So if you are gay your true friends will accept it and stand by you, your parents may not agree with it and may have difficulty accepting it but you are the same kid they have always loved and supported and they may need to be educated and enlightened on the fact ones sexuality is not a choice it is simply the reality that there are straight, gay, lesbian, bi and transgender people throughout the world.
If there is a LGBT youth support group in the area where you live it may be worth checking into they are wonderful places to find support meet with other people dealing with the same issues and help you sort things out.

Since you have the curiosity, you will most likely act on it at some time, and then put it behind you, never to do it again. I think that is the most common occurrence. Personally, after trying it, I found I love receiving anal sex, but giving oral sex isn't high on my list, mainly because I have a mental block on swallowing semen, mine or others. Even though I enjoy being penetrated by other men, I still sexually much prefer women.