It started when I was 8. My big brother bought a cannibal movie and there was a scene where a woman was raped and I saw her huge boobs was bared and somehow, I love to see big boobs until now and the thing is,I'm a girl and I have big boobs too but not that big.Since then (8 yrs old) I can't stop from watching uncensored movie while my family isn't home or when i have nothing to do and it became worst when my cousin present me to porn when I was 12 and I've been watching porn and start to touch myself until I'm now 17.What's really ashamed me is that I accidentally insert my finger in my vagina and tear my hymen.At first I didn't know why there was blood but I learnt that a hymen usually tears when a person is having an intercouse.It saddens me bacause all my life, i wanted my first time is to be with my husband and I feel terrible if one day if I actually were to have sex for the first time with my husband and there's no blood.Virginity is important in my country because those who aren't a virgin is considered cheap(I know..its stupid).It became my breaking point.I'm scared,sad and angry and I want to stop from being too sexualy active .What must I do?
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