Hey everyone just wanted to tell you about my first time rolling and some of the things I'm dealing with in hopes that someone has over come this and can help me.
I just recently attended a music festival in Tampa memorial weekend. The 27th and 28th of May. I had an amazing time with some great people and even met some new faces. I had the time of my life, everyone was happy dancing and carefree but I didn't expect this to happen to me. This is really long so I apologize in advance and if you have any negative comments please keep them to yourself. I know I caused this and no one is to blame but myself trust me I have learned my lesson.
We entered the festival at about 4pm I had brought 3 x tablets and broke them all into halves. The first day I took my first half at 6:00pm. At 9 took a half and 10:30 a half. In between I drank some beer and lots of water. The next morning i had a headache so I took some acetaminophen along with a hash-brown and was okay after an hour. So Day 2 we started pregaming at about 4:30 and I had a few shots of Hennessy. When we got to the festival at 5:15 I took my 1st half and let's just say every 2 hrs I took a half. My last one at 11:15(my friend gave me and extra half). I also drank lots of beer however I didn't drink as much water as a should have. So basically in two days I took 3 and half x tablets.
The next day (Monday)felt like a normal hangover I was sleepy, drowsy nothing out of the norm.
When it got kinda late (Monday night)I went to see my family and it felt like a dream. I felt like I was floating. I felt like I was in another realm and I was trying so hard to act normal. Even though I was talking face to face, It was like being under water with goggles on. I figured I was still coming down since it was the same day and went to bed.
(Tuesday) I woke up to go to work and barely remembered the weekend ,it was still as if I was in another realm or world (I hope I don't sound insane) I wasn't even sure how I was walking or driving . I forced my self to eat. On my way home from work that day I had a break down and couldn't stop crying I felt empty and I didn't belong here. That day I didn't want to be alone so I stayed over my fams house again only to wake up in fog.
weds thru Fri- I tried to get back to my self and put these emotions behind me but each day I woke up empty. I was confused as to what my purpose was on this earth and wasn't sure who I was anymore. I cried each day wishing for my old self to come back because I lost interest in all the things I loved
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I had similar experience and I think that I would never be able to forget those after MDMA effects. I also wanted to go to some festival, it was a really famous music festival in my country and I really wanted to be like everyone else there. So, one good friend of mine offered ecstasy for me. I am sure that he didn't want me to feel bad after this, he wanted me to feel good, I suppose. It was ok for five hours, I think, but the worst nightmare was when I needed to fall asleep. I had some hallucinations, I was really bad and I had headaches. Just like you, I was empty. I woke up empty as well. So, my advice doesn't take it, especially if you never took it before. It maybe OK to have this "wild" feeling during some festival or something like that, but the ugly feeling after is following you all the time....
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