I'm am a 14 year old girl and I couldn't sleep one night Bec I had this nightmare about suicide and then when I woke up there was four to five small cuts on my arm and I've been having suicidal thoughts ever since then and I've been very depressed and it's making me cut my arm even more and now there's like 5 to 7 scars on my arm right now and I'm really scared about everything was just happening and I just don't want to lose my family and yes I have the very bad depression and anxiety attacks and panic attacks I'm scared of a lot of things one one of them is a fear of dying and losing my family members my grandma died 2 years ago and I'm still having nightmares about it and I woke up to even more cuts I really need help