i have been taking pain meds for about 2 yrs and my doc gives me methadone 5mg 3x a day. but sometimes the pain is so bad i will take an extra one. she said if it doesnt work (only been on for 3 months) she wants to send me to the pain clinic. im withdrawaling now and it absolutely sucks.i dont abuse it but i do take 1 more then im supposed to once in awhile but im scared to go to the hospital or the doc to ask for a early refill cause i did it once and she told me to take it as prescribed but when u have it and yur in more pain sometimes more than usual i take another. 10mg the most at a time thats not bad but i cant handle the withdrawal for the last wk i have until a refill. and even if i ask for something for withdrawal or to deal with the pain if she takes me off what am i supposed to do for the back pain? it gets worse evry year (arthritis in my middle back, my lower back is alot more arched than normal and they dont no y the back of my neck gets tangly numb cold sensation). idk if theres something else i could take for the pain or what the pain clinic will do. been to physical therapy, went to orthopaedic they sent me back to physical therapy. idk what to do. i have 4 kids and going threw this to me is like my life is slowly being taken away. thats the only thing i could think to describe it. i am not suicidal. someone please help me. do i go to emergency, my doc or wat being that its a wk early? ive only been getting a script for pain meds for about 6 months. i wasnt addicted really until prescribed but seriously i no they say alot is in your head but when i wake up i cant move or get motivated for at least an hr due to the arthritis. it burns so bad i cant bend cause it feels as if my back is gonna just rip or something.