Bleeding for over a month and scared to death..pls help

I am very concerned with what is happening to me... about 4 months ago I found out that I was pregnant and I know many don't want to hear this but after long and an extrememly hard decision which I really wish I hadn't done I had an abortion at 11 weeks, I was told the procedure went fine and was told what I should look for in a complication were to occur I bled which I was told was normal for 2 weeks after the procedure and then stopped and felt completely fine, I had chosen the new ring birth control and followed everything as it had said and continued what I believed to be normal cycle. A feww weeks later took the ring out and 3 days passed before I had my normal menstraul cycle... only issue was it wasn't near it.. the first three days it was extrememly heavy to the point I had completely saturated a Super tampon in less then an hour and I was going through tmapons like a woman goes through chocolate on a sappy chick's night and using medium flow pads for an over flow.. it lasted only 5-6 days calming down and going away as a normal flow goes. About two days later My Boyfriend and me were having intercourse and I started to bleed again, and it has been this way for about a month now.. heavy some days light others.. Some days going through tampons like there is no tomorrow..On some days of this month there is large blood clots about the size of a small nectarine or lil nickel clots or brownish discharge. I feel scared and unsure about what is going on. I am not in any pain, no cramping. light headiness or feeling weak. But the bleeding has not stopped.

I have taken out my ring once again for what should be the normal time of my monthly flow and my constant flow has turned bright red and clotty and I am going through super absorbent tampons like eggnog at chrismas... I am scared to death I may never get to have a child again, and feel I am being punished for the life I took regardless of my decision felt the right one and I want to know what is going on. I am even soo afraid to go to the doctor and they take my uterus away, which may be silly and I know I will see a doctor but I have to wait to they open again because of the holiday season. I don't want to face that choice of bleed to death or never have a child again. Please help me. If anything til I can see a doctor.