I'm on day 8 of sobriety. I'm 29 now and have been drinking just about every day since I was about 20. I started off drinking malt liquor, about 4 a night for about 4 years. Then started drinking a six pack of tall cans a night for the next 4 years. Which is what, about 8 beers. I started dating my current GF who has been my best friend since 16, the beginning of this year. And we both have drinking problems, so it escalated from there. Every night I will have a six pack. And on some nights I'd have shots mixed with beer at the bars.. sometimes going up to 16 drinks a day, on the weekends. The FEWEST drinking I would have in a night were 3 beers. And that was RARE. Recently she got her 2nd DUI and was court ordered to go to impatient treatment. And spent 7 days in Jail. The weird thing is she get's very little withdrawals.. She does get anxious, and shaky though. But that's about it. I think what she does though, is doesn't think they are withdrawals, and blames them on anxiety.. I however, have been in hell the past few days. We took her to treatment yesturday, and it was terrible. I had to drive 3 hours.. And I was so tired I felt like passing out while driving. I had a headache, and she told me my heart was racing. My eyes felt swollen and my mind was racing. The treatment center was even worse since we had to wait for an hour. And knowing I was going through this IN a treatment center made it terrible since I more than likely also needed help, and felt like they knew. Either way, I still feel terrible. I can't sleep. Sometimes I will sleep for 4 hours, But when I wake up my mind starts racing, I start thinking about stress and just can't shut it off. I am in a haze most of the day, and feel detached and depressed. I get these weird muscle spasms, like it's just one group of muscles that twitches. It drives me nuts. And I get sleep twitches that wake me up when falling asleep. The first 3 days I couldn't stop crying, for no reason. Today was a bit better. My eyes still feel heavy, and I get dizzy on occasion. I'm sick of having dark circles under my eyes, and terrible heart burn. I quit about 6 months ago for 2 1/2 months, and that was a breeze compared to this. For those of you going through withdrawal, the second time is far worse than the first. So if you think about being an occasional drinking, don't even try it. For those of you experiencing insomnia. The best thing for you to do is put a TV in your room if you don't have one. Take a multi vitamin before bed, and put a sports drink next to your bed and if you work, and if you can.. It's better to call in sick for a couple of days. Treat it as though it were a month long flu. I have to go to my girlfriend treatment center on Sat. and I hope I feel a ton better. DON'T PICK IT BACK UP.
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