I cannot relax during masturbation and my body hurts everywhere

Hi I am 37 and am  so very turned on   I think I have had a few orgasams  but I am not sure  I was on my one and I   Would use hypnosis a lot   And  some times  I can let myself go  and outher time I just can't  realx enough  and outher times I am left feeling full  ❤️  I  don't know what I  can do   My body  hurts every where  not with pean but with need I can't cope with theses feelings