Love and Pain

So I'm friends with this fine girl named Amanda right. I kinda never told her how i feel about her. One day we are in the library (the spot were me and my friends started hanging out) and i'm talking to her but she starts loosing interest in me, i can tell, so she sees Richard my home boy who she likes and starts talking to him, for a minute i got depressed and walked off, when i walk back Richards got his hand in her pants and he'S kissing her, at that point i did not know weather to cry or fu*k Richard up but, in the end Richarddd is my home boy and i love Amanda so i could not do anything i stepped behind the book shelf shocked and crushed, a minute later i step out and she walks over to me and says oow he got me wet and giggles at that moment i never felt lower but i cant get her out of my mind how do i make her mine