HI, I am back again, It is like 2:30 in the morning and I have been having trouble sleeping. My dad gave me my kidney when I was 14(now 23), everything has been working ok for me. But for my dad his blood pressure is starting to creep up. My nephrologist told him not to donate to me because he thought his kidneys would fail later down the road, and now here we are later down the road. I do not know what I will do if I have to see my dad go through the same thing, I had to go through. I would rather suffer than my dad. I would give this kidney back to him in a heart beat.Beside it is not mine in the first place. If my dad died I would go too. The guilt would kill me to know that, it was my fault that I killed my dad. Time can only tell, but with the time I have now with my dad, I am going to enjoy life I am not going to complain about my pills or my weight. I mean please these are little things. My butt could be sitting back on that hemodialysis machine. I try to always pick myself up when things are down. I try to enjoy the little things of life, like how Fall smells and how a breeze feels on your face. That is what life is about. If you can learn to break yourself away from the negative things in life and enjoy the little things then I think outlook on life will be alot more positive. So to all my transplant brother and sisters we are all in this together, and we all need each other support. So stay strong!!!!!