Depression controlling my life!

i am 19 and i started developing depression when i was 11 years old when my mother died.... i cant concentrate at TAFE im failing my subjects because i always feel down , i really dont feel motivated, im always crying and always am an emotional wreck, when i get into my depression moods i honestly dont feel myself, its a strange feeling i really can not describe i just want to literally jump off a bridge. i have been taking cymbalta (60mg) for a year.

i have not taken my tablets for 4 days now because it started off not having the time to go to the doctors and then no money..... my head feels so tight right now, when my head pounds my eyes seam to lose focus, my fingers feels tingerly and my stomach just feels so bad. i just want to know is that normal? ive been trying to find if there is symptoms like that.... should i be worried?

please i really need help

how can i change my life around, i have tried everything to try to improve my mood. i dont really have family just brothers and sisters and i live with my boyfriend and his parents, i dont really have money because i only get centrelink around 300 a fortnight. i just finished school at a salvation army ( st james) but i dont have an OP or rank thats why i have to go back to tafe so i can go into university but i cant of this depression.... well i have alot of more problems but thats kinda the main things right now that is bothering me. any suggestions i would really appreciate it. and if you have any story's you would like to share that would be grate. thank you very much for taking time to read this.

Thank you for sharing what your going through and that is at least a first step in making change. There is of course no easy answer I can give you but I can share somethings that have worked for me in the past. You said that you have not been taking your meds right? Well, first of all if they were working for you then the first thing you need to do is find a way to get a MAP card, or help through Medicaid so that your meds are covered. If you are overwhelmed and don't feel like you can go by yourself then ask a friend to go with you. Also, this may not work for you but it really did work for me and I highly recommend it although you may not agree, it's a book called "Awaken the Giant Within" by Tony Robbins. You can get it at half price books for pretty cheap, it will be a great start at helping you focus on the positives and get your mind centered on all that is good around you. I hope this helps.