Feeling depressed after stopping the birth control pills?

Wev had such a good relationship up until how- he treats me so well and i know hes madly in love with me! I used to just get excited at him even textin me an now i feel guilty that im feeling like i dont even wana talk! He deserves so much better an was thru so much pain an heartache before he met me and i cant even seem to understand that how bad it was for him! All i seem to care about is how im feeling now an it makes me feel so selfish an horrible! He doesnt deserve this! I used to live for him an our time together an now i feel like a fake or soemthin! Its hard to explain! Just want to go back to the way it was. Instead im constantly worrying about the future

I know. I feel the exact same way. We will get better! It is just time that needs to pass.

How longs it gona last tho? Im 9 months off pill now :-( an the whole point was to get pregnant an now i feel like i dont even wana try :-(

I wish I had an answer.:( I do think that you wouldn't be distraught if you truly did not love him. I've read that it can take 1 to 2 years to be fully yourself. How long have you experienced this?

These latest feeings of "unlove" have been about last month but prior to that i was super paranoid he was goin to leave me, like i mean totally irrational- the poor man wasnt doin anyrhing wrong! I was jus bein so insecure an overthinking everything

Yes it definitely sounds like hormones are at work, especially if your other unfounded thoughts you don't think about much anymore. I am really guilty of over thinking too, and my reasons for "unloving " change a lot. One week it is we are more so friends than anything, another week I am not attracted to his appearance. Pretty much shallow thinking on appearance wise things that I was able to ignore. But at the same time I find myself missing him, wanting to lay with him and when i lay with him, i cry tears of happInes because i feel love. Have you spoke to a therapist yet ? He or she really may be able to make sense of feelings. I am going to see my regular doctor this week, and after ruling out any abnormalities in bloodwork, I am definitely going to try and see if he knows anyone I could talk to.

I got my bloods done an they all came back regular! I was really hopin theyd show i was lackin somethin which might explain these feelings! Its just so unfair- i have all iv ever wanted in life an i cant seem to enjoy it! Iv put my husband thru hell an he still loves me an tries every day to make me happy! He is devoted to me an all i do is appear miserable! I have been seeing a counsellor which empowers me at each session but then a few days later im back to overthinking and worryin about the future an whata going to happen :-( it is soul destroying an i feel so selfish cos other people would kill for my life im sure

I know how you feel. My bf is so supportive and loving, and before all of this all of the physical stuff meant secondary to that. I feel now I have lost the ability to appreciate all that I have even outside of my bf. I too have a lot of nice things. One year ago, I look back and I was so happy the only thing that changed was I was taking the pill, not my bf or our relationship. No matter how many times I tell my bf my doubts or questioning, he hasn't ever gotten scared. Almost like he knows that this is all temporary, and that makes me feel better.I saw a quote that said don't give up on somethin that you can't go a day without thinking about, and that gives me hope.

I am so fed up :-( just wana get that buzz back of being newlywed an start a family! Worst year ever yet it shud be the best yet :-( il never get this time back! Iv loat all perspective on live an just seem to focus on the negative :-/

I know. I am so sorry you have to go through this because I know how painful and debilitating it is, it has wrecked my life and made me hopeful for absolutely nothing. I would trade anything to get the feelings back again. The feelings of nothing being wrong.

Thank you for your message. It gives me hope things will get back to normal. I've stopped the pill 2 months ago...things are slowly getting better...some on and off days.

Hello ladies hope you are all having a wonderful and peaceful day. Is always nice to see the forum active we certainly give each other hope.
Mare

Hope all of you guys are feeling good today too! Everyone have hope.

Jess

Hi, my name is Faye . I've been off BC for over 3weeks. I was on kariva for 3months. I do have a past history of anxiety but had it very well under control. The first week off was the worst. I wanted to die, I thought I was losing my mind. Since that week everyday was a struggle I was anxious, paranoid about crazy things like whether my car would start or if my phone would work before I turned it on, or what if I get stuck on the work elevator. I had a difficult time going to the store or out to eat. I would have awful intrusive thoughts. I have bad dreams and the anxiety is always worse in the morning. I have thoughts of leaving my boyfriend because I think he would be better off. I do love him, but forget to tell him I love you when he leaves or hangs up the phone. I can say everyday is a little bit better. But I hate this, I'm tired of not feeling like myself. I've always been a very happy energetic person who believed in the impossible. Now I find myself not recognizing who I am and feeling that my God has left me. I was fine till I stopped the BC. I have had physical symptoms too: sensitivity to light and seeing flashes of light in the corner of my eye, joint pain, headaches, leg weakness, lightheadedness, weight loss, nausea, fatigue, and cramping like I'm on my period but am not . I have yet to start my cycle. I did see a naturopath and am on supplements, they seem to help. I also exercise and do yoga/meditation. This helps too. I could use a word of encouragement please ladies.

Hey gals! I've been MIA for awhile. Went on vacation. I actually got on a plane which I never thought I could handle again after going off the pill. I've always had a fear of flying, which of course intensified from all my anxiety and panic I was going through post pill.

I was even able to drink without having a reaction(had a ton of food/med/alcohol sensitives after pill). I'm almost 10-1/2 months off and feel soooooo much better. No more head pressure, only occasional slight brain fog. I still deal with slight cramping when I'm not even on my period.

I guess I just miss my love for life. It's like I'm in a cloud and nothing excites me like it used to, I used to feel happy, n bubbly, could hold conversations with people. Now my mind still feels so slow from all of this. I cant remember if I was this anti social and boring before the pill, I know that mentally I was stronger then, now I keep trying to compare my new self to my old self and questioning my every thought and movement. Basically builfing myself up and trying to get back to the old me. I'm not complaining because I've come such a long way, this process is just so time consuming.

Faye-
I remember having leg weakness n a lot of fatigue during the first few months. I feel like time and trying to take care of myself helped a lot of my symptoms start to fade. You are on the right track from what it sounds like.

I'm still trying to control irrational fears or thoughts, but as long as I'm no longer driving myself into anxiety/panic attacks those thoughts are something I can live with.

I try to tell my boyfriend that I love him and show him that I care, but at times it feels forced. Like I'm making myself hang on to this person because it's the smart or right thing to do. Apart of me feels like I'm getting older and won't find another by the time I'm ready to love again, that's when the fear of being alone for the rest of my life sets in, which is kind of irrational considering I'm still sort of young.

Anyhow I hope you all are doing good.