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I am a 26 year old drug addict that got hooked on heroin at 21. After almost ending up in prison I decided to try methadone maintenance to get off of heroin. This worked for a while, and during the first 2 years I stopped using anything other than my 120 mg of methadone per day.
After about 2 years I tried detoxing slowly... I got down to 17 mg per day, but this quickly became miserable and I started using heroin and oxy (anything I could get ahold of) again. I was influenced by the methadone clinic to stay on and increase back to 120 mg / day. The "Dr." at the clinic tried to increase me up to 180 mg and tried to convince me that my path was as a "lifer".
This last May (2012) I had enough and decided to face my fears. I had already lost my job, money, gf, and alienated all of the important people in my life. Enough was enough.... I went and visited a friend out of town and brought with me my weekly take homes of methadone. She had agreed to help me while I detoxed.
I went off about 6 weeks ago taking the full 120 mg per day. In my limited experience I have found that a detox from 120 mg, 12 mg, or 1.2 mg are all just about the same. A solid week went by where I ate almost nothing, slept 1-2 hours per day and felt like I was Dante walking through the Inferno in Hell. I cannot lie and say this part was easy, because it wasn't. But the important thing is I stayed on my 2 feet and walked my @$$ right out of hell.
The important thing is that it WAS NOT as BAD as I imagined it would be. On the 8th day I woke up and looked outside, and for the first time since I got in to drugs I felt like myself again. This feeling was/is so new to me and it is amazing. I still have withdrawal symptoms 6 weeks later like leg cramping, nausea, diarrhea (ended about a week ago), eye tearing, and all the fun stuff... But, my life has improved 1000%. I've gone to about 14 NA meetings to find strength and it has been extremely helpful. With my new found cleanliness I had an unexpected return (more of a discovery) of spirituality. Perhaps the greatest thing has been the new bonds I have with my family and best friends.
All of the good things that are happening have come on their own. I am a much happier person now, even if I suffer a couple hours each day with mild withdrawal symptoms. Point is... the human body is extremely resilient and we are all capable of accomplishing things that we had nightmares of, thinking we were stuck forever and with no way out.
Good luck to everyone! Don't be afraid - I have faith in you even if you lost faith in yourself.
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Later, Thomas (and Debra) Brown:
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Please help me figure out an easy or easier way to get off methadone!! My doc has prescribed for 1 1/2 yrs and I was up to about 120mg a day. I just decided to quit cold turkey and am miserable. This is the hardest thing I've ever done but not going through all this again for anything. I would do anything to know what I do now and never gotten on it. I need advice and help. I haven't eaten in 4 days and can't even take care Of my kids. I will take any advice I can!!
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I'm sorry you are having such a hard time of it. I was on methadone 5 mg for 12 years and had to cold turkey detox 5 weeks ago because of my heart rate increasing rapidly. It's been Hell. I ache so bad I want to die. I feel like it's never going to end.
The first 3 weeks almost killed me. You need to be taking supplements and Melatonin at night. Also,drink Ensure clear if you can't stomach food. Stay in the tub as much as possible. It gets better, but vey slowly.
Hang in there and you can talk to me anytime. You're not alone.
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